I am not fighting my YH. I lost (step 1) and I am nuts (step 2). No book 'proved this to me, and no SA-guy 'convinced me of it. My track record showed it to me, after failing for years at this particular area over all others and seeing how my allergy to lust has twisted so much of my life already...that is called "losing". Though there were always some well-meaning guys cheerring me on to "beat the Y"H, man! Battling it is all that matters to our Tatty in Heaven!" - all on my own I finally came to know that while I may win a few glorious battles, I am definitely losing the war. And that life definitely sucked. Though I did not realize it, that was Step 1 working in me.

And Boruch Hashem I finally came to believe that my own G-d (Hashem) definitely does not desire me to have a life of crap. I didn't know it at the time, but that was Step 2 working inside me. As far as I am concerned, the cheering 'Y"H-haters' can go stick it in their collective ears (I am being kind there... ). Their wives and kids are not the ones reaping hell. For they are not addicts - and I am.

Life is now very, very good.

OK....so nit Shabbos gereit...

Gesher, why is it sad?
This forum IS what you need, so be happy you have it!

You know what Gesher, it's not a distraction at all. Some very profound things have been said here.

...i didn't share my stuff to show off, but to describe what I am experiencing - you probably have some of that same stuff going on in some way. That's all...

TehillimZugger wrote on 30 May 2012 11:01:


Somebody gave me this. You may find it useful. Keep it in your wallet and read it before you walk outside (or while you are walking outside).

anyone wanna do a free english translation?

That's really good. I wish I could get one...

thank you ur-a-jew
1) for the tefillah
2) for getting us back on track !

ontheedgeman wrote on 31 May 2012 19:00:


Here's my take:

Ribbono shel olam, help me to rectify the blemish caused by forbidden sights. Help me that I should not be led astray after my passions (my heart) and my eyes. Please guard over my eyes constantly from all forms of sights that would bring spiritual harm to my vision. Help me that I not gaze at anything that will bring me chas veshalom to improper thoughts. Lead my eyes away from seeing emptiness. On Your path let me live. Uncover my eyes for the purpose of seeing the wonders of your Torah.

The Yetzer Hora only has power over that which the eye sees. Sotah 8

When a person diverts his eyes from seeing bad if is an opportune time for the tefillos he davens then to be accepted
(Shomer Emunim)

Getting pleasure from forbidden sights in this world causes one to lose the pleasure that will come from beholding the ziv hashechina in the world to come (Ben Yehoyada Brochos 61)

Otzem (closing) Eiynav (ones eyes) Mayraois (from seeing) Bi'ra (wicked) The last letters of the Hebrew spells out maos (money). To allude to the fact that guarding ones eyes is a segulah for parnasah

The desire for illicit relationships is only distanced from a person by a person distancing himself from forbidden sights and thoughts (sefer hamiddos)

The zohar states that when Reb Shimon Bar Yochai saw pretty woman "Al Tifno El Halilim" (zohar)

When a person walks down the street and guards his eyes he causes thoughts of teshuva to the entire street (said over from Eliezer Berlend)

The following posuk is a quick tefilah from Tehillim (suggested by the Vilna Gaon, I believe) before going in the street:

הַעֲבֵר עֵינַי מֵרְאוֹת שָׁוְא - בִּדְרָכֶךָ חַיֵּנִי

MT

Wow. That is the posuk I put on my cellphone wallpaper a few months ago cuz it says so much!

See! Everyone agrees that tehillim is awesome, and now for a vort I heard from Rabbi Elimelech Biderman in the name of the Baal HaTanya:

Are you sick?! What are you thinking going to war??

Whaddya mean? I'm a soldier!

Yeah, but do you know that by every single war people DIE! do you know what "coming home in a body bag" means?
If you were sick with only a sixty percent chance of survival you would be running to kivrei tzadikkim and gedolim, don't you realize that when you go to war, either you come home or... you don't?

Listen, when you get out on the battlefield you get this adrenaline it just starts pumping, it's like WE'RE GOING TO WIN, WE'RE GOING TO WIN, who thinks of dying? The prospect of winning is just so powerful that it totally eradicates any other considerations, even I guess... dying.

What does dying have to do with living right now?

And easy on those vitamins, chabibi.

Love you :-*

Love you too bear, I mean Dear

TehillimZugger wrote on 03 Jun 2012 18:47:


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