I also had this same problem--it's only pornography and masturbation and looking at women (oh, but mostly just looking at women), it's not like adultery and prostitutes or anything. What's really the worst that's going to happen?
But, first of all, I can't control myself, and as long as I can't control myself, it's only a matter of time before I fall over a cliff. I am surprised to see that, every once in a while, a new and more severe form of acting out presents itself. If I had not been in recovery these past few years, I would have gone down-hill.
Besides that, I see that it's not just the acting out that's a problem. My whole personality is affected; I can't deal with life. I am riddled with fear and resentment. And, in recovery, I have not only stopped acting out, but I have come to terms with the world (at least to a much greater degree than ever before), and I am living life on a much different, a much healthier place.
And for that, I'm glad I took my addiction seriously, though I didn't think it was so bad at first.
--Elyah
