Hey it's me again. Surprised?  I'm a little surprised myself!  If you remember (hopefully none of you ever knew me) but after years of struggling with ssa issues, I have been able to recognize its not me at all nor should it be for anyone. I started to pick up some small bad habits regarding the "new" me. That's why I came back, to squash those impulses before they became a real problem. During my long hiatus, I spent almost all my free time in hitbodedut, asking to be released from the hole I was in. In the meantime, I will be more than happy to help those with the same ssa issues I had. Thanks for having me back!  Btw, can someone please develop an iPhone app for the forum? I'm sure it would be much appreciated by a great many people. Thanks again
Coby

Coby, welcome back, it's been a while...

I just wanted to tell you that when I first discovered this site almost a year ago, I was so happy to find a place where people were genuinely struggling and suceeding at overcoming their lust issues, but since I have SSA I sort of felt that it didn't apply to me. So i searched for SSA and yours was one of the first threads that came up. That's when I knew that I have a place here too, and that there is hope for me too.

Gevura!

thanks for replying.  If you dont mind getting into deeper conversations with me (we could do it off-site also if you wish) I'd be happy to help you on this one.  When did you first get (or realize you had) SSA issues and did you act on any of your attractions?

I've been aware of it since my early teens.

My whole story is on my thread here: http://www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=4125.0

Maybe live meetings can help as well.

If you feel a live meeting will help I can talk. Depends where you are though. And obviously not a too private place. If you phone numbers or emails are better, those will probably be safer for both of us. Not to brag, but I may completely throw you off the course because I look young and you know my size. So if you want we can email or have phone sessions. Hope to continue this convo
Coby

Hi Coby,
May my words be spoken with truth and humility, and may my words find favour in the eyes of the readers.

I'm not sure what part of your post was therapeutic and what part was actually part of your current active addiction/relapse. 

The graphic content in your post is not recovery as far as I've learned it.  It's reminiscing and ruminating and it can cause extremely negative outcomes both for yourself and for people in these forums. 

It's clear you are in no position whatsoever to offer your "cure" to  other addicts at this stage in your recovery, and the moderator of this forum should be on high alert for people in your stage of recovery who are so eager to help others. 

I strongly warn others too, reading these posts, that at this stage in early recovery, a person can be a grave threat to other recovering addicts.

I've never said this on this forum, but I feel your posts show that you have been through major sexual trauma and that you have not begun the process of healing.

To make my warning gravely straight forward, I am concerned that your posts border on predatory/luring behaviour and I urge the moderator of the forum to be on high alert.

Kol tuv b'ahava.

FOLLOW UP;  just so people don't think I'm totally nuts, the post I was referring to has been removed. 

Keep on trucking.

Edge--thank you for clarifying. Perhaps you are right. I have gone through trauma in the past and you're right, I may have been a little too early to suggest that I can help. I have been around the site for many years and thank you saying the probable reason certain words are edited. However, if I am somehow searching for prey I think you are mistaken. There has been one place I have been many times to get my "fix". I def would not take advantage or use this site for those purposes. I can control that much at least. But again thank you for clarifying your remarks and not posting your comment on the main thread. I did have a surprisingly quick recovery and I am probably really getting into the healing process. But as for the "luring thing" that was a reply to a comment on this thread. I am not looking for anything more than help it seems. I'll just quietly return to lurking and posting more appropriate remarks when I feel I should put my two cents in.
Again, thank you
Coby