Previously, I have decided to take a break from the forums, since some the stuff on them were triggering me.  But now I want to try again. Over last couple of months, I have been working with nutritionist to improve my sleep and being less stressed and now  I am getting better sleeping  and overall feeling better. However, P & M issues still persistent. I have tried putting a good filter and first / second week things were good, but after that, filter starts to bother me and I always find a way to bypass it. I am thinking about going to live group / shrink, but from what I heard one just needs to sit there and share what is bothering them / their feeling. But nothing has been bothering me that much, I just kind of do it (P & M). So I am unsure what to do.         

the idea of live groups are the idealogy that p&m are a direct result of bad character traits
and when you alter those traits then its a lot easier to stop p&m
these groups work on the 12 steps which is cleaning your traits

I read  Dov's ideas on this thread. It hit me strong, I'm starting to connect to the idea. I feel my reservations slowly shrinking. Thanks.

Wow, thanks!

How's it all going nowadays, Mefatfeit?

Welcome back, Dov.
Thanks for asking.
B"H I've succeeded in starting to surrender, I sometimes think that all the work in "one day at a time" layed the groundwork - when I make life small I can then make myself small.
The chevra here have been and continue to be a tremendous help, ecpecially a specific few who know who they are.
I still sometimes have falls, but I try to learn from them how much I need Hashems help, and to get up right away, because only the present really matters.
Can't wait to hear more from you...
Hope your vacation was rejuvinating.

How u been buddy?