ontheedgeman wrote on 06 Jun 2011 12:14:


Because "I'm not perfect" should not refer to your work, it should refer to the outcome.  What must always apply to your work is "I must try my hardest, at this moment".  If you can answer that one honestly, then you will know whether you are a helpless addict, or a person who needs to work on himself.  "Honesty" is a tricky one here.

jester,

You are 100% right,
The reason why I set it so (thus leaving an open door, should i fall) because otherwise it wouldn't be that specific. The 75 amount im already using for a fall with the 30 minute rule (read my initial post). Now i could make a third amount for this and another amount for that but I wanna stay specific "and" simple

Even the fact alone that I committed myself just for the next fall, could cause the very same problem. I would think "oh I've anyways fallen, gotta pay now its over" getting me even lower.  However I think that I''m only missing determination and I do have the inner power to overcome my addiction, I really believe that I wasn't determent enough -although I cried much- but i was missing the highest level of determination (I might be wrong)
That said I feel I've set realistic limits....well I hope so

But in any case if I/you would come up with a VERY SPECIFIC AND SIMPLE way to manage that problem, I would implement it
thanks

im not alone wrote on 05 Jun 2011 18:55:

(yes I'm quoting .... myself)

I cant belive it

im not alone wrote on 03 Jun 2011 16:13:

(again  quoting myself )

Yes I started ר""ח סיון and today is ר"ח תמוז  and I'm still going strong
Before I implemented that double taphsic approach I was barely able to squeeze out a 4/5 day clean streak. And now...................28 days clean and counting

(talking to myself? ? ?)
INA
Keep it up, you are doing great, were all routing for you,
(sort of proud of myself )

Wishing you much success and continued הצלחה
KEEP ON TRUCKING you make us proud
im not alone