emunas hashem wrote on 26 Apr 2016 04:51:
Hey all.. so I had a fall.
That rhymes!
Eh.. who am I kidding. Jokes aside, I'm pretty down on myself now. I mean, sometimes this just seems like an endless battle. Like Ill never overcome this addiction. I was clean for a week and then just tonight I acted out.
Also, I realized something. I have strong anxiety and I never realized that I was kinda self medicating by acting out. Cuz its like a quick dopamine rush and makes me feel better at least for a bit. so the past week, absent of that rush, I was going out of my miiiiiiind.. and tonight I just couldn't hold on:/
Any wise words of encouragement?
EH maybe take a pen and paper and write down the Gye 1st Amendment, so you always have it in fr
ont of you
"Peace and loving kindness for oneself and all others.
Coming down on anyone (including self) is against company policy"
You're
on the right road.
As they say
FSKOT (Fell Shmell
Keep on Trucking)
"
I have strong anxiety" - reading the white book may be very beneficial for you (always available under the "Free Towing" page
here)
By the way, do you have any
one to speak to (eg. a coach), about your lust struggle