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I always do. I just can't figure out what the word spoiler means in this context, and what there is to beware of.
Also is there a comprehensive list of roshei teivos some where? For instance "KOT" (i gave a guess but not sure.

Redbeard is right.  I really don't want to change.  I want to keep doing what I am doing, and not get caught at it or in trouble for it.

Thanks folks.  Your words are appreciated.  Trying to figure out Dov's post but he is a bit shall we say, "enigmatic" in his writings. 

This site is no longer for me.  It is for people who want to change, and who want to make a commitment to change.

I, unfortunately, am not one of those, as my behavior clearly demonstrates. 

I will no longer bore your with my pathetic escapades and cycle of guilt, teshuvah,guilt, teshuvah any longer. It is even boring me. 

With that said, I do thank you folks for your time and trying to help me.  But, as they say, you can't help those who won't help themselves.

I do not want help, I want absolution for my sins, AFTER THE FACT.  

And nobody is going to give me that, except perhaps HKBH, and even then only if I can sincerely atone, and we all know that the Rambam is clear about how real teshuvah can be accomplished and I and miles apart from that goal 

All is not lost, I am not depressed about his, and in fact I am rather happy that I came to this conclusion.  Now it is  clear to me that I need to look in to myself and look much deeper for outside help than this site can provide.

Again, thank you all for your time and attention. 

May Hashem bless all of you with the conquering of your Y"H and for all your KOSHER wants and desires to be fulfilled. 

Thank Gd the forums are quiet today

We are all working on recovery in groups / emails / etc..

Keep on Trucking

YOSEELLLE!!!!!!

WHERE WERE YOU WE HAVE BEEN WAITNG YOU

KEEP ON TRUCKING

POST AWAY!!!!

BARDS

I gotta agree with ina on this one. Over the last two weeks, I've seen things and have had thoughts that gave me pleasure, and I began to get angry and frustrated that I just can't control myself. And then I remind myself, this is totally normal. And magically, I calm down and go vyter feeling positive and encouraged to keep improving. It's working. I haven't fallen once since I joined GYE. If instead I keep telling myself that I have an addiction, it feels like an insurmountable defect and I'd just get depressed. Obviously if someone really truly has an addiction, he's got to face it and learn to manage it, whatever it takes. But if I can have this mindset, that I'm a normal male doing my best to follow the dvar Hashem, and it works to keep me clean, I would think it to be obvious that this is the correct approach.