Hey guys,
In one of Guard recent e-mails, there was a forum member who said that he was simply, "Through with investigating whether something is actually bad, and it will be ok as long as I stop before this or that happens."
I'm often in a situation where I know that 'going further' could lead me to fall. A part of me even genuinely wants to pull back and to be a better person. However, although I know I could do it if I really wanted to, either my curiosity or my lust just overpowers my desire to choose the path of discipline and self-denial.
Recently, when this his happened, I'm right in the middle of slipping when I keep in saying to myself out loud, "what am I doing, what am I doing, you mad man, stop before you regret it." Thank God that I've stopped before the point of no return and I haven't fallen.
Nevertheless, what is it that convinced you guys to turn away even from potential triggers? When I tried to do this a couple of times, I felt like was going to die for about 20 minutes afterwards.
Sorry if I've been melodramatic. Thanks again fellas.
Keep on trucking!
DL
