My Rebbe told me, when we were discussing a perek of Alei Shur (R Wolbe) that when babies are born, they come out a little and then they go back in and then come out more and back in etc. This seems like an unnecessary torture to the mother but in fact this is vital for the baby's life. So too, all growth must proceed in this pattern of moving forward, back a little, then forward again. I just think about that when things get tougher.

And also, I was thinking about what people like to say around here : "Keep on Trucking". It's a strange phrase. Why trucking? Because trucks go long distance and they have great momentum. A trucker will drive for days and neither he nor the truck cares if it's good weather or rain or sleet or hills and valleys or nice scenery or urban or rural or cold or hot or...He just has a job to get from point A to point B. So maybe that's us. We need to be focused on that point B and not care what the weather is (because nobody can control the weather). Im not sure if I've gotten to the bottom of this metaphor, because it feels like there's something else that I can't quite put my finger on...

Google now lets you delate Buzz your profile. Go to 'settings' pick 'Buzz' then select delete. Keep on trucking!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Guys,

I just fell today and it wasn't because of porn, lust or R.I.D. It was simply overconfidence mixed with curiosity and carelessness. I won't go into explicit details, but suffice it to say that my fall could have been avoided and really should not have happened. I had been clean for 50 days exactly.

The trouble is that after about a month or so clean, I start becoming complacent, and although I still regularly review my fences, they start becoming more like words on a paper rather than evoking the respect that they merit.

I begin to think, ahh, a bit of this won't hurt, you can control it, you're not really doing anything that bad anyway. I feel a bit ashamed to admit my fall, especially after all the great chizuk you guys gave me. It seems as if the YH will first try and make you sin in open battle with the big guns of lust, porn etc, but if that fails he resorts to dirty guerilla tactics and shoots from the shadows with curiosity and more subtle tactics.

I find the only way to stay clean is to renew the battle everyday. Somehow, I have to treat each new day like I fell yesterday, so my level of moral tension will always be high. The trouble is remembering this and SERIOUSLY doing it.

Anyway, thanks for listening guys and TC.

Keep on trucking and KUTGW,

DL     

Hey Me,

Thanks for your great Chizuk! You've made me see things from a very positive perspective. I hope you're doing well.

KUTGW and keep on trucking!

DL

GiT VoCh

Alleh yeedin

Meihoidu ve-ad kooosh!!

Thanks Mr Efshar Letakain for dee varimer verter

It is an amazinG thing

The more hachnaah we have the less anything bothers us


Ok fellas keep on trucking

Gabbeh climb in make room  for IMT
Ok we are oof to shushan!!!

Just say Fell Shmell and move on


KEEP on TRUCKING!!

B"H, life is good...plenty of stress, but coming from good things.

You can wish me a mazal tov if you like, and suggest ideas for celebrations (90 days has passed), but right now, too busy to try and figure things out.

Keep on trucking, everyone!

Hey guys,

Thanks for taking the time to post your chizuk. I appreciate your kindness.

I hope you are doing well.

Keep on trucking and KUTGW!

DL

Thanks I'm trying, I really am trying, lol. Right that was a shocker.

Anyway, what I wanted to say is that I've thought of a way to knock myself out of a complacent frame of mind after a long clean stretch. Yesterday, whilst cleaning out my drawers, I found some old pictures of myself during the worst days of my addiction. Those images hit me with the force of a sledge hammer.

I couldn't believe the sharp and PAINFUL contrast between the person I am now to the young man I used to be. The eyes that lacked light, the inner depression that was masked by a faked smile; the darkness of that time came back to me in a flash.

One picture stands out from among the rest, and I will look at this everyday for 5 minutes, remembering what it felt like a few years ago; the misery, the bitterness and the feelings of despair. Maybe this way, I can turn the YH's scourge into a gift after all.

I don't know if you guys ever watch Star Trek (very sad I know), but as Kirk said, "I need my pain."

Have a great day guys and thanks for your support.

KUTGW and keep on trucking!

DL 

keep on trucking momo!!  We are all here for you!!

keep on trucking my friend.  Also, do your best to remember its only about tiny slices of time.  Just get throught the minute.  Live for today.  Don't worry about tomorrow.  Just remember to live.  We are all here for you!!

keep on trucking my friend.  what type of news are you looking for?

I see this place is a little lonely.  I have had many times where i felt that way when at least one or two people were posting.  Glad your doing well.  Keep on trucking and stay positive.

Welcome back!!!

We are like a family

No one falls off the
Truck!!!!


KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!

Bards

I told you long ago you had one of the best threads on all of GYE!!  I hope todays email proves that to you.  I know now that you inspire a whole website, not just afew people.  Great work and keep on trucking.

Keep on trucking - and find something to do that'll keep you busy and hopefully happy!

Keep on trucking Noya.  Every day is a great day when your clean!!

I'd been "clean" for a month before I decided to read the rules of the WOH. It was a rude awakening! 

I assure you, though, that you are capable of doing this, even though it might seem impossible. If you had asked me a week before I started whether or not I could do it, I'd have told you "no way!" But with the help of GYE, here I am. I would never have guessed that I was capable of doing this!

Instead of trying to fight the filter, can you set up a plan beforehand of doing something else when you feel the urges?

When do you usually feel the urges? Is it at a certain time, or after something else happens?

Keep on trucking!

Understanding does not help!

KEEP ON TRUCKING

AS LONG AS YOUR IN THE RING

EVEN IF YOUR HEAD IS GETTING BASHED IN

YOU ARE A CONTENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KEEP ON TRUCKING!!