Acceptance, Achievement, Accomplishment, Admiration, Adventure, Athletic, Art[istic], Authority, Accuracy, Adventure, Ambition, Attractiveness, Autonomy, Beauty, Belonging, Caring, Chinuch, Comfort, Compassion, Compromise, Conscientious, Cooperation, Challenge, Change, Creativity, Commitment, Complexity, Contribution, Courage, Courtesy, Curiosity, Creativity, Diligence, Ecology, Faithfulness , Dependability, Dignity, Duty, Excitement, Faith, Fame, Family, Fitness, Flexibility, Forgiveness, Freedom , Friendship, Fun, Generosity, Genuineness, Good Parent, Genuineness, Gratitude, Growth, Halacha / Hashem’s  Will, Health, Helper, Home, Honesty, Hope, Humility, Humor, Imagination, Independence, Industry, Inner Peace, Intelligence, Justice, Knowledge Leader[ship], Loved, Intimacy, Knowledge, Learning, Leisure, Loving, Loyalty, Mastery, Mindfulness, Moderation, Music, Novelty, Money , Monogamy, Non-conformity, Nurturance, Order, Openness, Passion, Perfection, Pleasure, Power, Proud, Protect, Purpose, Patriotism, Popularity, Practicality, Provide, Rationality, Realism, Reputation, Respect, Responsibility, Risk, Role Model, Romance, Safety, Security, Self-Acceptance, Self-Control, Self-Esteem, Service, Sexuality, Success, Solitude, Stability, Strong, Tradition, Wealth, Simplicity, Spirituality, Tolerance, Virtue, Wisdom, World Peace, Yiddishkeit.

I don't think that masturbating it watching porn will make me feel horrible. In fact, there are benefits for me to engage with it. It physically relaxes me (that is a fact, orgasms are relaxing). However, despite the benefits I'm choosing not to engage. Why? Simple. It doesn't fit with my values and lifestyle as a frum Jew, and deeper perhaps, it doesn't fit with how I want to think of myself. I don't want to be a person who masturbates or watches porn (this value is likely a result of being raised drum etc.). Basically, there are serious downsides to not masturbating or watching porn as a single dude. However, I think that living in alignment with your values is worth alot more than that.