In the journey of my addiction and recovery I have noticed many of my trigger to acting out is the desire of wanting to be perfect. Not feeling enough as I am. I have such a desire of being perfect husband, father, member of the community, work and more......

I have noticed that due to those feelings I have put myself in many trigger situation. I create lots a anxiety, frustration and anger etc for myself.

I have been asking myself why do i wanna be the perfect in everything? Why I don't feel enough?

In recover also I have been expecting a lot from myself and the recovery. I get so frustrated after acting out and I feel down due to that and I tell myself that I'm not perfect in recovery. And that bothers me so much and puts me in a worse situations.....

I would like to hear some thought on this issue!

Thank You,

Ota Avakesh

Excuse me but who are you? Ota avakesh is not your name and we here use our first names. That's not perfectionism, just a bottom line antidote to faking and hiding. If you use your real first name, I guarantee you will be halfway to clarity in your issue immediately.