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Re: fresh start 22 Sep 2010 06:46 #78918

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	CHAG SAMEACH!!!
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Re: fresh start 22 Sep 2010 07:11 #78921

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Same to you reb shturggly wurggly!!!
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Re: fresh start 26 Sep 2010 07:12 #78991

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hey. moadim lsimcha. so, im having some difficulty with one of my sisters. its not a new thing, recurring, for quite a while. and for some reason it's getting to me. im not sure what the story is that im in that is bringing out these emotions. i think something about not being loved. any thought/suggestions?

also last night, i had some urges to revisit some particularly nasty old habits. got a bit scared from that. in general im in a bit of a tense mood, feeling pressure, etc. im going to take some time to breathe into that and maybe figure something out.

moadim lSIMCHA.

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Re: fresh start 26 Sep 2010 21:15 #79073

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"Taking some time to breathe into that" is one of the wisest ideas I have ever heard, particularly when it comes to a painful knot that involves emotions, lust, family, and other confusing messes that are way bigger than our scope of vision.

Sturggle, you are a breath of fresh air!

PS. Sometimes I discover that when I can't think into it at all, giving it all up, shrugging my shoulders, and consciously moving past it and into my present life seems to work wonders. Usually, soon after getting free of the ball-and-chain, a light goes on and perspective returns....not so as long as I try to force the 'Faberge egg' of my feelings open!

However it works for you this time, hatzlocha!!

"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

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Re: fresh start 29 Sep 2010 08:47 #79316

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	Sometimes I need to breathe just to be able to shrug my shoulders! And perspective itself is a breath of fresh air! B"H, 72 days clean! Chag Sameach!
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Re: fresh start 29 Sep 2010 09:11 #79320

Eye.nonymous OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 2696 Karma: 15	dov wrote on 22 Sep 2010 07:11: Same to you reb shturggly wurggly!!! This must be the shortest Dov post ever! Probably too profound for "Daily Dose of Dov." Most people just wouldn't understand.
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Re: fresh start 29 Sep 2010 12:15 #79330

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	72 "just for today's" Sturggle! ;D
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Re: fresh start 01 Oct 2010 14:53 #79355

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This morning I had a unique opportunity. I slept last night in Yerushalayim and did not have my tefillin with me. My decision was to take a bus to get my tefillin this morning and daven there. I had a little bit of a hard time getting out of bed (because I went to sleep very late) and I missed the bus that would get me to where I needed to go on time. I could take a taxi, though, and then it struck me...

Over the last year or so, I found myself at times either driving on my own or hailing down a cab to go certain places that were very inappropriate to do inappropriate things. I probably spent some good money on some taxis at some very strange hours to get to and from these places.

I am 74 days clean today from acting out and I was able to stop myself and realize that I had a chance to be metakain some previous expenditures on taxis that I ran to do l'shem aveira with the big zchus of running to pay a taxi to get somewhere l'shem mitzva.

B"H! (Maybe this can be considered a hug?)

Still working on breathing, accepting, and being in the present.

Gut Shabbos to all!
(And Gut Voch!)

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Re: fresh start 02 Oct 2010 19:19 #79359

Eye.nonymous OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 2696 Karma: 15	sturggle wrote on 01 Oct 2010 14:53: I had a chance to be metakain some previous expenditures on taxis that I ran to do l'shem aveira with the big zchus of running to pay a taxi to get somewhere l'shem mitzva. That's great to realize that! Shavua Tov, --Eye.
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Re: fresh start 05 Oct 2010 04:15 #79527

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Mazel Tov Sir! Or as Bards would put it, MAZEL TOV SWEET YIDELLE ! !
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same." Last Edit: by .

Re: fresh start 05 Oct 2010 05:38 #79535

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	Not sure what the occasion is, but I'll take some good mazel when it comes my way! Do we really believe in mazel? Hmm... Ok, ok, not to think too much, veiter, veiter!
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Re: fresh start 05 Oct 2010 09:27 #79551

silentbattle Current streak: 1628 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3734 Karma: 15	That is beautiful, and (I think) absolutely correct!
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Re: fresh start 06 Oct 2010 19:04 #79772

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sturggle wrote on 01 Oct 2010 14:53:

Over the last year or so, I found myself at times either driving on my own or hailing down a cab to go certain places that were very inappropriate to do inappropriate things. I probably spent some good money on some taxis at some very strange hours to get to and from these places.

I am 74 days clean today from acting out and I was able to stop myself and realize that I had a chance to be metakain some previous expenditures on taxis that I ran to do l'shem aveira with the big zchus of running to pay a taxi to get somewhere l'shem mitzva.

Yosef Hatzadik wrote on 24 Feb 2010 17:28:

Last night, I heard that Rav Chaim Brim Z"l said that the reason R' Osher Arieli Shlit"a, R"m in Yeshivas Mir, was zoche to give such a great shiur is because he never walked on Rechov Yaffo!

Also overheard last night: R' Asher Arieli Shlit"a said about himself: Many yungeleit save up some money, a little at a time, to amass some funds for a purchase that they want to buy; I saved up the loose change in order that I should be able to take a taxi to yeshiva one day more, thereby saving one more time of walking in the streets of Yerushalayim.

Yosef Hatzadik's Ha'oros
Tov veyoshor Hashem al kein yoreh chata'im baderech!

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Re: fresh start 16 Oct 2010 17:24 #80568

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	SHAVUA TOV!! :D ;D 8) ??? :
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Re: fresh start 17 Oct 2010 02:46 #80591

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Yeah! Shavuah Tov, amigo!!
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same." Last Edit: by .