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Re: fresh start 16 May 2010 11:21 #65528

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Maybe Yosseleh Hatzadik'le meant that for us guys in chutz la'aretz "One day at a time" is really three days because of s'feika d'yoma.  ;D
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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Re: fresh start 18 May 2010 11:58 #65989

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Chag Sameach! May we all be zoche to feel HKB"H's love on this huge day of Matan Torah!

3 weeks clean!
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Re: fresh start 18 May 2010 12:42 #65993

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Chag sameach to you too Sturggle.
3 weeks is awesome! May it continue minute by minute, day by day!
Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM"
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Re: fresh start 21 May 2010 04:11 #66096

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Amen - hope you had a great one!

Keep it up, you're really on a roll!
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 09:18 #66845

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I just had a slip.
I hope that I can figure out what's going on with me.
There are so many things on my mind and things that I want to do.
I think that's all part of it and it is also keeping me from just doing and/or figuring out why I am feeling the way that I do right now.
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 09:42 #66847

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and I just fell.
quick and simple.
there was a reason for this.
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 10:17 #66849

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sturggle wrote on 26 May 2010 09:42:
there was a reason for this.

...which would be..?
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 11:09 #66851

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if I knew the answer I would have written it.
unsure. something I need to think about.
on a simple/deep level to help me realize that I have more to work on.
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 16:50 #66894

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Maybe...but maybe it's time to just work on today and allow Him to put the solution into your heart and mind with no help from your brain at all. Maybe not. Everyone is different and changes, too. Hatzlocha doing what you can do! I love you Sturggle!
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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Re: fresh start 26 May 2010 17:00 #66899

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Please be careful with that idea...down that road, madness lies.

You fell, Fell Shmell. You're up now - stay that way, one day at a time. You know you can do it!
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Re: fresh start 27 May 2010 06:38 #67060

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B"H, today is a new day.
No matter what I feel, I can make it a good one, with HKB"H's help, of course.

Dov, I am trying to work on today. Without my brain, though, I don't know how possible that would be. I don't want to get lost in my head, but it definitely serves a purpose!

SB, be careful with which idea? And did I just catch you Yoda-ing?
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Re: fresh start 27 May 2010 12:02 #67074

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Mm. Much power young Sturrgle has! Strong the force is within him! (why is there no high-pitched voice emoticon?)

What I meant was that...ultimately, god has some reason why you fell, at least according to R' arush (not sure if everyone agrees with that). But first of all, just like with everything else in life, we don't always know what God's reasons are, and trying to figure it out out can drive us crazy, and often leads us to make assumptions that can easily be wrong, and are often motivated by our own selfish concerns.

But most importantly, I think that the danger in that way of thinking is that we need to be careful - it seems to me that it would be easy to start thinking about the fact that there's a reason for the fall...even before the fall. And THAT, is madness.
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Re: fresh start 27 May 2010 22:05 #67221

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Gevalt, what's with y'all? I don't mean to go without your brain, really. I just mean what works for me: Not to go with too much of our brains. Knowing when to think, think, and think - and when to let go of the lust to nail down the explanation or rationale...that's a blessing from Hashem. Most nisyonos require (as the ba'al haTanya and many others say) a bit of suspension of our Da'as. We seem to lose our brains at the point of nisayon - and are left to proceed on what feels like blind heart, alone. I cannot count the times I went without the lust temptation for what felt like no rational reason whatsoever! When I have a lust temptation - ate actual moment of true choice - it boils down to me feeling that I really need this crap. It truly seems to be in my best interest and there is no logical answer I seem to be able to grasp onto. The mussar is all slippery in my hands. But when I "overcome" it is usually by me just figuring that there were so many thousands of times that I went with the lust 'just because', that it was now my turn to suspend my judgement of what's better for me and go without it - just because.

In other words, sometimes, all the hundreds of meetings, thousands of hours of stepwork, and thousands of shares in meetings I have made, all boil down to a moment of letting go of my judgement and accepting Hashem's judgement instaed of mine. And doing without what feels like it'd be soooo nice.
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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Re: fresh start 07 Jun 2010 17:28 #69299

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Hey sturggle,

Haven't seen you update in a while. WHat you been up to?

-Yiddle
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Re: fresh start 08 Jun 2010 04:22 #69396

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Yeah, vos hertzach?
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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