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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: fresh start 21 Apr 2010 19:35 #62326

DovInIsrael	ok- back to our earlier topic of baseball... whether you are a baseball fan or not - this is an incredible play: sports.yahoo.com/mlb/blog/big_league_stew/post/Superman-leap-makes-Fordham-player-a-viral-video?urn=mlb,235668 never saw something like this..the guy jumps over the catcher and scores a run!
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Re: fresh start 01 May 2010 22:46 #63826

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Shavua tov

Shabbos was pretty nice and quiet. I had a little occurrence on Fri. night, when in the middle of my sleep I half woke up to find myself at the end of a masturbation session. It isn't the first time something like that has happened to me. I got all upset at myself in the moment, and then I changed what I was wearing and went back to sleep. In the morning, I pretty much realized that I didn't have much control over that and I was for the most part not fully conscious. I'm still counting myself as clean and hope to make it through another day.

I know I haven't posted in a bit, stuff has been going on and I plan to write a bit about it in the near future.

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Re: fresh start 02 May 2010 03:54 #63846

silentbattle Current streak: 1628 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3734 Karma: 15	Glad to hear that when you became aware of what was going on, you stopped! Rock on, looking forward to hearing more from you!
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Re: fresh start 02 May 2010 05:47 #63852

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	SB, I appreciate the kind words, but I only "stopped" once it was over... There wasn't much to stop from at that point.
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Re: fresh start 02 May 2010 16:42 #63875

silentbattle Current streak: 1628 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3734 Karma: 15	Ah - I wasn't sure what "at the end" meant, precisely. I guess I should've picked that up from the other details in your post. Either way, though, you were asleep - you didn't do it consciously. I still remember having a (wet) dream about mas%^&ing, and in the dream* ,being horrified that I would have to start my 90-day count again!
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Re: fresh start 05 May 2010 22:08 #64027

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	I have something to share... AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, now that that's over with, gnite.
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Re: fresh start 06 May 2010 07:11 #64083

Cleareyes613 Current streak: 272 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 399 Karma: 1	Goodnight Sturggle.
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Re: fresh start 06 May 2010 07:23 #64084

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	thanks cleareyes. and to you.
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Re: fresh start 06 May 2010 14:35 #64112

Steve Current streak: 5034 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder I Posts: 903 Karma: 2	that was the AAAAHHHHHHH heard 'round the world! Good to see you again, tzaddik.
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Re: fresh start 06 May 2010 20:38 #64167

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	thanks Steve.
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Re: fresh start 07 May 2010 08:20 #64249

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	: ??? :o
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Re: fresh start 07 May 2010 08:21 #64250

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	just checking..., so are we locked or not? and what about us Israelis?
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Re: fresh start 08 May 2010 23:23 #64355

Sturggle Current streak: 178 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1706 Karma: 1	Welcome back to the forum... Shavua tov!! B''H, feeling pretty good. I think it's mostly b/c I am working on being good, even those times when I'm not feeling it.
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Re: fresh start 09 May 2010 02:09 #64356

Bestrong88 Current streak: 275 days OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Karma: 0	Sturggle, You tha man .. man! keep up the shteigin, I'm sure G-d is looking down and "smiling" Keep being good, and hashem will be good to you
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Re: fresh start 09 May 2010 04:25 #64368

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Nice to hear your doin well, wspecially bc your tryuing hard to be good. I think that it is really important to realize that you are not "being good" . You are healing from a sickness. You my friend were always good, and Hashem in his unwavering love to all of his creations loves you dearly even when you are falling. We must always try to internalize the ABSOLUTE TRUTH that the person who acts out and falls is not the real you . You are a precious Neshama, a soul who has come down into this world. A soul that is connected to Hashem and is not bound by any physical limitations. We do not act out or fall. That is someone else. The real you is the guy who is striving to become ever so closer to his creator. I can promise you that when you interalize this truth your struggle will become so much easier.
With Love,
Zalmandovid

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