struggle wrote on 22 Aug 2009 21:45:


Getting a good night's sleep is a fabulous idea.  One of the reasons we need to sleep is so that each day should be a fresh start.

Gut morning all.

R' Guard, thanks for that big hug , definitely put a smile on my face when I saw it this morning.

BeStrong, you saying hi? How are you? What's going on? I haven't heard much from you recently...

Kedusha, sleeping was good... Didn't get much of it, but I slept well, didn't even wake up to my alarm this morning until my dad knocked on the door asking if I was ready to got to shacharis. I totally wasn't, but I jumped out of bed and we made it.

6 days clean...

7 days, studying, but finding it difficult to concentrate. feeling a lot of sadness. want to think about it, stay here, read people's posts and respond, but i also don't want to fail my tests!

maybe change your name from "struggle" to "freedom!" 

R' Guard,

why freedom?! I don't feel free at all. I've been having a hard day. I don't think I like myself much, I've been finding other things to do besides for acting out, but it's not easy and I don't feel so good or healthy. I just feel down...  and it make it hard to focus!!

Heiliga Struggle,

7 days! Gevaldik - now you have a full week of cleaniless! You were mesakin each day of the week!

I think you are deppresed because the Y"H is working overtime to get you give up. He sees that he is in trouble. Just forget about him, have a long talk with Hashem and ask him to send your Y"H to the Yishma'alim where he belongs, and keep on studying GYE for your own structured battleplan.

Also , please check out my thread that I recently started entitled Bilvovi Mishkan Evneh. I am seeing miracles. It might help you.

Chazak Vematz,

Pintele Yid

R' Pintele,

Thanks for your constant chizuk. It really keeps me going. I've been meaning to look at that thread of yours, but I haven't had the proper time to give it the atteniton that I'd like to. Be"H, b'karov.

Hey "struggle", if you stop struggling so much and let Hashem do it for you, you might FEEL free 

Did you join one of our free anonymous 12-Step phone conferences yet?

guardureyes wrote on 24 Aug 2009 19:38:


no R' Guard, not yet. but if we get something going in Yerushalayim, than I might prefer that to the phone... Either way, right now is not the best time for me to start with a group. iy"H in three weeks I will be done with exams for school and will be getting ready for the tests of the yamim noraim and perhaps then will be a good time to seriously consider a 12 step group

Struggle,

Just think about it, if you get to exams while clean you will be nearing 30 days! ;D

Pintele Yid

STRUGGLE KEEP ON WINNING

BANG BANG BANG

WE ARE ROOOOOOOOTING FOR YOU!
bardichev

struggle ,

Good luck on your exams , I just took 2 finals last week, I was so busy sometimes, there was no room for the Y"H.

BeStrong88 wrote on 25 Aug 2009 21:11:

Busy is gooooooood

We go tot constantly keep ourselves busy with something. Pour over GYE in depth to develop a "personalized" strategy, and learn learn learn and when you can't do any of the above, listen to Carlbach or whatever turns your soul on fire or go do a chesed.

I remmember the Heiliga B discussing chesed projects on one of his posts.

Bottom line  - keep busy!

Pintele Yid

I want to go to sleep. For some reason, I also feel a need to write before I do. Addiction? Ya think?

All I can really say right now is that I love you all.

Pintele, Bardichev, BeStrong, thanks for your posts.

I've been having some ups and downs in the last couple of days, which I think I already wrote a little about. It is much easier for me to come on to the forum and write to others, sometimes joking around, other times even seriously, and to avoid confronting myself and what is going on with me. Last night I had a mikreh layla. I wanted to get a chance to see some of the other posts about it before I wrote something. Didn't get a chance to do that until later in the day. Ok, I need to stop typing and rambling and put myself to sleep. Eight (almost nine) clean days... Thank you for being here for me!

b'ahava raba ugmura,

Struggle

Pintele Yid wrote on 25 Aug 2009 21:29:


Just listened to R' Shlomo singing aylecha, so good, that's what I'm falling asleep to tonight!

Can't get enough of GYE! Gnite! (I think I got that song from a link from this site!!)