Have been on the site for almost two months and I stayed clean for 43 days and then fell. I'm having a hard time starting the climb again so I decided to start writing.

Day 3.

GIVALT!!!! 3 WHOLE DAYS IS SO SO PRECIOUS

Focus on the now not the past.

I once heard a bartender I'm Kentucky say:

Keep on truckin

Hey Installed,

We have missed you on you know what... You plan on making a grand entrance anytime soon???

-Yiddle

Keep writing.  KUTGW!!

Mkay, 4 days clean, now in my 5th.

Was very busy/distracted so I didn't have much of a nisayon but glad that I'm still clean  :.

Holy Yid: Will definitely try. I'm glad that it's Rosh Codesh as it will probably be easier to get going again.
Bardichev: Working on it. Thanks.
Yiddle2: Good question. Was moving around and couldn't make it. Will be there bezrat hashem today (Tuesday)!
Sci1977: Hope to every day!

Chodesh tov to you all!

Day # 6.

No news is good news. Had a bit of an urge today but worked out like crazy and it went away  8). Learnt a lot about the first 3 steps today. Will try to process it all now...

Chodesh tov.

Will keep it brief cause I'm in a rush. I'm still "clean" but I was not perfect with my shmiras einaim. I know from last time that this is a slippery slope so I'm upset at myself for not overcoming it but at least I'm still on track. Day 7...

Day 10...

Was busy and a guest over shabbos so I didn't have much of a nisayon. Still clean b'h phew...

How do you learn the steps, do you go through the Big Book?

Hey,

Clean 14 days now. Still pretty distracted most of the day so I'm not facing this nisayon all day which is great. Trying to connect to hashem as well when I feel like I can get into a situation that can be problematic.

installed wrote on 19 Aug 2010 05:02:


I like to try to connect to Hashem even when I dont feel like I'm in trouble. To me "troubled situations" are Hashem trying to tell I am not connecting with Him enough when there's no adversity. If he's not connecting to Hashem in those times, then let's see how 'ol Yiddle fares in a pressure cooked situation... I'd prefer that Hashem not put me in those situations because it shows that I dont need them to connect with Him in the way that He wants me to.

-Yiddle

Yiddle, good point. It is difficult to think of hashem when we don't "need" him but that might be the point. Thanks for the reminder...

Still clean (18 days).

Well...

It's been a while! Back to my old habits again >. Wanna make a new attempt. As my sig suggests, insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. So what will I be doing different this time??!!! Donno, looking for a serious partner for starters. Will not give up movies or secular music yet cause it is too big of a step and I don't want to give it up yet. One thing at a time... I know that it is all connected (movies/music > turn on (at times) > build up > build up > build up>...)

Anyway, nice to be back. I feel great when I succeed for a while  ;D

Rosh chodesh in a few days... new beginning? let's hope.

Regarding movies, there was once a fellow named Reuven who went to a movie which was all about gourmet food.  Due to poor planning, he attended the movie on a fast day, which caused him to obsess about his hunger for the rest of the long afternoon.

The above is just a mashal, but I trust you know where I'm going with it.