oneday wrote on 29 Dec 2010 04:42:
It has been tough.
I found a way to get around k9 and you all know what that means.
What I haven't done in these last couple of days is go and block the other way.
I am no longer pushing it off... I'm going to hopefully get this fixed and back on the right path asap!
what dov says...a person can have all the precautions in the world, but if he doesn't want it enough none of it will help.
dude, yeah, fix the filter thing. but fix ur attitude too, maybe? i mean u have an awesome attitude in general, i'm talking about ur attitude towards this addiction.
if u really are serious about helping urself, maybe now is a time to read through the attitude handbook again?
you have to want this. not just dream of 'the day you are clean for 90 days' you have to WANT to live a clean and sober life. so so badly, that as the saying i love goes 'even if my butt falls off i ain't falling'. falling's not a joke, dude. not that u think it is, but i just tell myself that sometimes when im feeling down about it all. falling's not a joke. it's f-ked up and it's wrong
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. and it messes us up and ruins our lives.
cmon, up and at it, bro.