At least I got up faster than last time.

Ever notice how the language of Selichot is in the plural? To me, that's referring to the whole forum.

Which means that I had the whole forum in mind late last night and I will again tonight in just a few minutes.

Oh man, oh man....

I'm feeling the weakness coming on already and it's only been like 4 days (I don't count so I don't actually know).
Must be that whole nearing the Day of Judgment thing. The final push to get us to fall before we are summoned to be judged.



NICE TRY BUT IT AIN'T GONNA WORK. TOO PREDICTABLE.

pull it together, mate...theres nothing there but smoke and mirrors...join me making this stand, please...

I'm trying. But I think part if it is that I'm afraid I may have injured my knee several days ago. It still doesn't feel right, and injuries are partly how I fell into SA to begin with due to the depression etc.

I'm going to give the knee a few more days before I get it checked out. I REALLY don't want to wind up back in physical therapy........

I guess it's the price we pay for not being sedentary. I hate being sedentary.

Don't you have something in that bat-utility belt of yours for climbing buildings w/o using your knees? ;D

the knee? are you kiddin me? that is 100% purely your addiction talking...your knee!...listen, man, bum knee or no bum knee the only way you will overcome is if you take a stand...take some punches, sure, but hold your ground...one day at a time, one minute at a time...because if you dont do it now, it will only hurt more...

dov wrote on 16 Sep 2009 21:29:



I'm not sure you realize the depth of that post.

The answer is: OF COURSE I DO!

Once again, dov hits the nail on the head.

Thank you, good sir.

LOL. TOO PREDICTABLE. That kills me. Halivai we could always say "no" to the yetzer Hara because he's just too predictable! Am I onto something here?

As Dov always says; The addiction cycle is so predictable, it makes life boring. Only when we start to live OUT OF OURSELVES do we see life start to get interesting!

And I quote:

Don't think about it. and don't talk about it much, c"v, either. Thinking differently - even really hard - will not generally get us to be any different on the inside. We live in "asiyah". Doing changes us, and even changes the way we think and are on the inside. That is why Hashem gave us so many more mitzvos to do (as the RMB"M writes). After doing this for a while , our lives become wildly interesting and less predictable, too! (it is actually rather boring to think about myself all the time, you know!) We can also get sober and stay sober more easily.

Bruce,

shkoyach for posting yesterday when you were feeling weak.
how you doing today?

Well it's still yesterday for me because I haven't gone to sleep yet and it's nearly 2:30 AM.  I suddenly got really tired while I was feeling weak and I wound up passing out for an hour or so. Then I studied a bit and went to the gym.

Now I'm going to sleep.

I really shouldn't be up this late--I have a full day of classes tomorrow.


So if you want to know how I'm doing "today" you're going to have to wait until tomorrow, which is really today....

Sweet dreams  GBG  ;D

waiting man...
and good to hear that youre doing alright now.

Man,
Last night was almost impossible. I didn't get to sleep until a little after 3, then I woke up some time later feeling completely possessed, if you know what I'm saying. I was on the verge of falling. So close. But I stepped back. No way that's gonna happen right before RH. The hardest part was that I was still in zombie mode so I had even less self control than if I would have been completely awake.

And I had another really tough day today. Couldn't focus in class at all. I'm completely lethargic and restless at the same time, if that even makes sense.

I have to at least make it through YK. One day at a time. One hour, actually. One minute.

By the way,

In case I don't post again until after RH....

Just want to wish a k’siva v’chasima tova to all and sundry--and that means YOU.



See you next year.


--BW