When self-psycho-analysis and addiction obsession set in, I decided to leave GYE for a while to calm down and see if I could handle myself on my own. The short story is that for now I still can't.
It's been a few months full of ups and downs (unfortunately, many downs), but I'm happy I took them, because I now know how to face the addiction solo (though knowing I am NotAlone
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), how to refrain from obsessing over it even while I am in a clean streak, and how to keep out of a depressive cycle after a fall. I've decided that it's time for a conclusive push to, be"h, hit 90 and beyond.
Here I go!