Dear members of this forum,
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Well, as if to throw my hands up in disgrace, an unexpected fall hit me today. I did not wake up in the morning and willingly decide to fail today but it happened. The fall today was basically finishing touches on lustful feelings that I was having last night as can be seen from my previous post entitled "I'm not sure if this too private to post but..." Basically, my taiva was already revved up last night to the point where this afternoon I only needed just a small thing such as seeing a pritzus advertisment in the street to set my taiva off to a point of no return.
Anyway, like after every fall there is always some new strength that comes out of it. After my fall I called Elya and we talked then I called a person named Dovid from Monsey who insisted that I call him whenever I'm feeling weak. Anyhow, here we go back to the drawing board at day 1 which starts right now.
Soon enough I will be back to the way I was.
TrueRatzon.
