Absolutely davening for you!

Remind yourself, out loud if necessary, how great being clean feels. You've lived it, you know it. Don't let the yetzer hora lie to you!

I don't know you very well (my loss), but from what I've seen of you, you're incredible. So plan things out so you can get out of the house easily if there's a fire...then, from outside, you can put out the fire with no danger to yourself, then go back in when things are cool again.

NOORAH IF YOU SHOUT LOUD ENOUGH

BARD BAN HEAR U

U KNOW WHAT I MEAN

No problem my dear brother.

tomorrow, bli neder in bircas cohanim i'll ask from G-d to help you.
i don't know what is your really name, but sure G-d knows who is Noorabeamram!

don't let the menuval (Y"H) catch you, we are here for you,
just put here your feelings and we will make an effort to take care of you till the danger is past.

love you very much brother.
trust you.  :-* :-* :-*

Thanks to all the holy chevrah for responding and praying. It means the world to me

I do feel a little better now

i felt that if i didn't connect and get it out in the open that im in danger, there is a greater chance of falling! 

weeks can go by and im ok!

no IM not complacent and not arrogant, I know that each day is a gift from on High - yet yesterday was just ........scary      

old thought patterns of debased lust that i thought were history....started to creep up on me........frightening to know they are never really totally gone ......how does the old saying go?

"gone but not forgotten"

i guess the main thing is they are "gone"

Guard wrote in an old chizuk email  - about Moishke the Jewish innkeeper who closed up shop and the customers kept banging on his windows ------------ and He would shout out "Moishke's closed for "business" --- eventually they got the message and stopped coming!

maybe the baal duver will keep the &**& away from Noorah if I keep shouting "Noorah's is closed for business" > > >

my deepest prayer that we all remain firmly closed for "business"

love to all

Noorah

Stay closed for business.

KUTGW!!

always rooting for you Noorah

the resurfacing is normal.

though when it first happened to me (ie a strong struggle after a long period of being OK) I was both scared and in despair,HERE WE GO AGAIN.

But knowing that it is normal,as painful as it is,makes it somewhat more bearable.

Hang in there,dear brother

As Rebbe Nachman zy"a, used to (sort of) say: Ader nisyonos, ader bizyonos...Reb Sholom Scwadron used to refer to bad business as "bizyoinos" - to him as an israeli, the words sounded pretty much the same! You make me laugh, chaver!!

Thinking about you, dearest Noorah!

And eventually, we'll repopen another business there, so people will pass the store and say, "wait - they're selling couches and furniture...this isn't the liquor store anymore!"

And they'll turn around. We need to make it clear that we've moved on, we don't live there anymore, there's a new business here now (adn we don't cater to your type, sir)!

No shirt, No Shoes, No yetzer tov, No service!

thanks to each and everyone of you who responded to my cry for help..

feeling a bit better...

with tears in in my eyes

Noorah

Your words inspire us all, even in your cry for help - we need to thank you!

Get the tears out of your eyes and get to work, Nooraleh.

                          ;D 8) ;D

dov wrote on 27 Jan 2010 21:45:


Dov, cant you begrudge a fellow a little sentimentality here? if a guy gets choked up a bit, so what .........is he not a "guy" anymore?

you crusty AA ole-timers  :D :D :D

anyways, aye aye Sir ....back in to slavery gallery it is for Nooraleh ;D ;D ;D

There. That's better!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cant believe i wasnt here to answer your shout out!! Bad me!! Ill never forget how you walked me through my first days here on the forum. You made me feel so welcome!! Thanks for that.

Have a great shabbos!! Wishing you all the best!!