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TOPIC: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 25199 Views

Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 14 Aug 2009 17:16 #12374

Noorah BAmram Current streak: 3710 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 522 Karma: 8	Ich vel zein dort Can I daven kabolas shabbos for the umed? Oihavey Hashem sinu ruhu ....shome nafshos chasiduv.... It will be a kabolas shabbos to remember ;D
	[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b] A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita Last Edit: by guarding613.

Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 17 Aug 2009 16:37 #12729

bardichev	SHKOYICH FAYN GE-DAVINT!!! NEE BIST DUCH A CHAZAN!! MIT A CHAZAN KEN MEN NISHT REDDEN CHOIDESH ELLUL DARF MEN AREIN CHAPPEN
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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 14:02 #13458

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I'm going to SCREAM NOORA BAMRAM-FIRE IN THE HOUSE OF AMRAM

Noorah is worried that he is entering the "hot zone".

I'm coming off a very loooooong project @ work, about to wrap it up, I'm burned out and depleted both physically and emotionally - easy prey for that BIG FAT FAT BEAST commonly known as the YH

Last time I fell it was under similar circumstances and I seek no encore performance!

Work is supposed to keep one out of sin but I guess to much of a "good thing" is no blessing

Recently I passed thru the city of gotham and amorrah on the hudson

I try to minimize my visits to that lovely island

but when I do pass thru there I make it a point of taking the FDR drive instead of the West side highway because I believe there is less "view" there and less billboards etc (all those unfortunate enough t to travel there cam relate to it

)

The advertisers on these "un holy" billboards don't spend millions of dollars for nothing - they know exactly what they r doing - I make it a practice of keeping my eyes strictly on the road and cars ahead (btw this is very practical in ny - it saves all kinds of hassles with visits to "body" shops -pun intended

) .....nevertheless there were 2 huge multi story p**n billboards -forgive me for my crass expressions but I have no better way of describing them for the purpose of this monologue

which I sorta glanced @ from my peripheral vision.........being that thru the kindness of Hashem I've been for a few months in a good state with GuardingMyEyes

I believe that I may be in heightened state of sensitivity and this image keeps replaying in mind hence ...........

I'm going to SCREAM NOORA BAMRAM-FIRE IN THE HOUSE OF AMRAM

I pray the Ribono shel Olom should douse this fire .....NOW
Noorah

[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b]
A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 14:31 #13462

bardichev	NOOOORAH YOUR HOLY NESS IS STILL IN PLACE YOU REALLY TOOK THE STINGER OUT OF THE BITE NOW IT'S GONE MIKVA DAVEN CHASSIDISHE SEFER LCHAIM VAITTTER OIFIN LEITTER!! b
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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 14:36 #13464

battleworn

I can hear you screaming. Now that you screamed FIRE, I would humbly suggest that you start screaming at the menuval "SHUT UP YOU LIAR" Tell him that he's making a big deal out of nothing. All you saw is a peace of raw meat that some weird people worship. There's nothing there at all (except a lot of pain) and most important, everything will be absolutely FINE if you just walk away.

The menuval makes it in to a whole emergency and tells you that you're going to explode etc., when really all you have to do is turn your back on the whole thing. And of course when you do turn your back on it, you've accomplished the greatest accomplishment in the whole world!

CHAZAK VE'EMATZ!!!

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 14:52 #13467

Noorah BAmram Current streak: 3710 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 522 Karma: 8	Holy Rebbe Gavad DKholoh Kadisha Battelworn, Of course u r right...............just the BUM keeps coming back...... :D :D
	[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b] A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita Last Edit: 20 Aug 2009 21:31 by thatmoishguy.

Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 15:08 #13471

battleworn

Of course he keeps coming back. Because Hashem get's such a HUGE nachas ru'ach when Noorah who a short time ago.... is now making a leitsonos out of the menuval. So Hashem is replaying it again and again. Join in Hashem's simcha, it's a very great madreiga of Dveikus. I'm imagining what it must look like in shomayim - I would assume that the Simchas Beis Hasho'eva in the Beis Hamikdosh was small compared to this.

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 15:41 #13478

bardichev	TELL THE NASTY BUM THE SNEAKY MENUVAL YOU DO NOT ACCEPT "PLASTIC" ALL HE IS OFFERING IS PLASTIC LITTLE DOTS OF INK MEGAPIXELS LIGHTS IN A SCREEN IT IS A FRAUD FAKE PHONEY CHEAP CAMERA PLASTIC HARMONICA POLYESTER SUITE MARZIPAN CHALLA RUBBER CHICKEN !!!! GET OUT OF TOWN YOU DESPERATE LOSER!!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!! b
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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 21:37 #13557

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bardichev wrote on 17 Aug 2009 16:37:

SHKOYICH FAYN GE-DAVINT!!!

NEE BIST DUCH A CHAZAN!!

MIT A CHAZAN KEN MEN NISHT REDDEN CHOIDESH ELLUL

DARF MEN AREIN CHAPPEN

הנני העני ממעש נרעש ונפחד........מפחד יושב תהילות ישראל..........באתי לעמוד ולהחנן לפניך על עמך ישראל

יתגדל ויתקדש שמי-ה רבא
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b]
A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 21:40 #13559

bardichev	SHRAYYYT ERRR REBBUNYUUU GEVALLDDDDDDDDDD REBBENYUUUUUU!!!!DI VEST DICH NISHT DERTRINKIN DI VEST DICH NISHT DERTRINKEN!! AY YA YAYAAA Y YAAY!!! FROM AVROM FREIDS NEW CD YANKEL YANKEL!!!!
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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 23:31 #13575

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Dear R' NBA (Noorah B' Amram) -
Be"H this may be the waterbucket you are looking for:
Yesterday, walking through the very unholy-appearing NYC (from the Megabus dropoff three squirmy blocks to Penn station) and then to my parents' home in Queens, I had the peripheral vision experience you describe, at least 10 times.
Anyway, it's one thing driving around at home where I'm used to the very brief eye-closing and diverting my mind to reality, the surrendering of curiosity to Hashem, and the choice of safer routes to avoid "trouble". It's an entirely different experience having the sewage poured on me as I go through that town! Now, I do believe Hashem has the "brawn" and the "brains" to save me from that, too, if push comes to shove, but I wasn't used to that feeling (anymore).
So, here is my share to you, NB'A:
I became aware that I was starting to feel "dirty" at some point, after getting "splashed" by a few "lust-puddles". I started to feel quite the victim. Not good. But what was worse was that I started to feel dirty. Dirt attracts only more dirt, of course. I realized that no matter how "dirty" I was it'll do me no good at all to "live in the problem".
Then the thought occurred to me that Chazal talk about "if this menuval accosts you....". And it dawned on me with Hashem's loving help (He is wild about me, you know), that they call the YH the "menuval", not me. I'm the "boch" who they are referring to, of course. But on a deep level, I was actually identifying/confusing myself with the menuval, being azah farschmutzed!
As soon as I became aware of that, I chuckled again at how goofy an addict can be (very, very goofy, in fact!) and asked Him for help, being that I am an easily tricked man. Then we (Him and me) went on to my parent's home (my earliest acting out incubator!!) and had a great time with them, clean as a whistle. He really is the best Friend one could ever ask for, no? And I don't care how low any yid goes, as soon as he doesn't want to be so, he is not really farschmutzed at all!
If I ever feel farschmutzed again, I guess Hashem will help me just "close my eyes" to my own mishigaas and help me havesimple faith that I am actually a heiligeh man with a blazing, ancient light inside and a burning flame in his heart walking through this "ir gadol filled w/people who don't know their right from their left"!
Sorry about waxing poetic. Hope you get the practical suggestion. Just an addict sharing, really.
Love,
Dov

"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 20 Aug 2009 23:43 #13576

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dov wrote on 20 Aug 2009 23:31:

GREAT post...

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 21 Aug 2009 00:09 #13578

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Dov thanks for this share, it does help to know that I'm not the only human affected by the holy streets of ammorrah on the hudson

, I was actually going to get in touch with u- that's how desperate I was

I'm envious of your real and I underline the word real "relationship" with Him.

Do u ever stop and think that were it not for addiction u probably would live a 120 years and not reach this "real" closeness with the Ribono she'll olom? I know this is probably elementary and sorta goes without saying but I'm saying it anyways.

Love and tremendous respect my chashuver friend

[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b]
A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 21 Aug 2009 00:18 #13579

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bardichev wrote on 20 Aug 2009 21:40:

SHRAYYYT
ERRR

REBBUNYUUU

GEVALLDDDDDDDDDD

REBBENYUUUUUU!!!!DI VEST DICH NISHT DERTRINKIN DI VEST DICH NISHT DERTRINKEN!!

AY YA YAYAAA Y YAAY!!!

FROM AVROM FREIDS NEW CD YANKEL YANKEL!!!!

Love that CD

I think that either that song or "huf yankel don't give up!!!" should be made the official theme song of GYE.

Anybody have any connection with AVraham Fried and get permission?

[b]כי שבע יפול צדיק וקם[/b]
A Tzadik is he who continues to bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita

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Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal 21 Aug 2009 00:41 #13580

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Dear NB'A - Remembering that I'd not have come to Him if not for needing Him so "bad"ly

, is perhaps the only hope I have of gaining humility. I do not know exactly what humility is, but one of these days I'll ask a certain guy I love here who doesn't have a lower-case on his keyboard. Maybe he'll let it slip!

And, what would would we ask "Mr Fried, would you like to be our poster boy?" ;D
Oy, vei, I think i'm really hopeless!!!

"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

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