Im so glad to hear you hate snakes; I like you more already! :D
Im no expert (at anything), but my guess is that much of your lust desire is stemming form pure boredom. A way of filling the hours and blocking your mind from the day to day reality that you are bored with your life as it currently stands. Once you find something to stimulate yourself on an intellectual level, your baser needs will lessen accordingly. I speak form experience.
I once read about an elderly widow, who had always dreamed of traveling. So every year, she toured a different part of the world. At the end of each trip, she immediately began planning the next one. She ordered free brochures from travel companies and tourism offices. She researched each destination; from the weather, to tourist sites, nature tralis, cultural events etc. By the time her 'big trip' day arrived, she knew exactly what she would do each day and even how to get aound. She even learnt some basic vocab for the land!
The amazing part, is that she lived on no more than her social security check! She never left her home. But she was quoted as saying that she was happier than ever before; traveling the world from the comfort of her home!
(I think when her "trip day" arrived, she used to invite her friends over to 'say goodbye', and she would party in the national costume, serve local food etc!)
The best part is she never had her plans rained out this way either!
Why not try it Momo; you have nothing to lose! (And make sure you arrange a sitter for the kids for some of the trips; it's much more fun as a honeymoon!
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