Awesome news Momo.  Keep up the good work and understanding you are in a process of change is great.

Today is the beginning of the 38th day of my omer.
I'm faced with a difficult test today. Sorry I can't go into details because it may help identify me.
Hope I pass it. 

Hey, as long as you can identify yourself, brother.

Good luck, as the velt says...

Momo wrote on 14 Jan 2010 06:56:



Good luck MOMO.

Hey MOMO,

WORK IT!!!

You can do it, Home Depot can help!!!

We all have faith in you!

Hi,
I believe I passed the test!
Today is day 39.
Shabbat Shalom everyone!

Way to go MOMO!! You are officially the GUE hero of the day!!!
And please don't attribute that to GUE being quiet today. It's because you are awesome, and watching you plug away - gives all your fans a renewed koyach to go on.
SHKOYACH MAN!!

Hey...glad to hear that you won!

Keep on rocking and rolling!

Momo wrote on 15 Jan 2010 11:56:


Shavua Tov!

You're doing great!!!

I don't have time to read many threads these days, but I keep stopping in to check Momo's thread. He's my HERO!  :D

Thanks guys for the chizuk.
Yesterday was day 40.
Today is the start of day 41.
Shavua tov everyone!

Momo wrote on 17 Jan 2010 08:02:
MOMO Please be strong, it's R' Zisha's yahrtzait today.
And l'kavodo I'll tell you a well known saying of his.
When I come up to shomayim, they will not ask me "Why weren't you the Ba'al Shem Tov", nor will they ask me "Why weren't you the Maggid". They won't even ask me "Why weren't you R' Meilech (His brother). What they will ask me is "Why weren't you Zisha?".
We are only asked to be the person we really are, and use the potential we really have. Because that's us.
MOMO, Who you are asked to be is no one other than MOMO. And the nesayon which you are given is to stay away from the shmutz today. That's who MOMO is, and that is what is expected of him.
"Ki zeh kol ha'adam" - Just be you. This is the way MOMO acts. He genuinely cares, he is strong, and he recognizes what can trigger his Y"H to do things which he doesn't want, and he makes it his business to stay away from those things. Just don't do anything that MOMO doesn't do.
I hope you have an amazing day.

KG



P.S. Why can't I see your name on the chart?

Well said KG, I'm with you, they just expect us to be us... but be the best us that we can be...


MOMO my hero, 41 days and counting!!! Think about where all those celebrities end up... Here and glamorous today, in a private psych hospital after suicide attempts, drug addiction, divorce, and public insanity tomorrow.

It's the same thing with the YH, he makes the fall look so glamorous and excites us in all sorts of ways, triggers, etc... but as soon as it's done, the curtain comes down and all that's left is guilt depression, sorrow, anger, etc...

SO KEEP ON TRUKKIN!!!

And if you want to know who you are... in shamayim they judge us based on who we are at the time we die (which is why CZ"l tell us to do Teshuva one day before you die...), so I would say that who you are is the lion who has been roaring for 41 days in a row now!!!!

KEEP ON ROARRING!!!

You are what you believe you truly want. This is the general rule.
The fact that you ask this question actually sheds a lot of light on much of your difficulty.
Do you really consider that you are in essence a guy watching porn?
Do you truly want porn? Would you wish porn upon someone who you truly love?
I find it surprising that you can be so far along the journey with such doubts.
If this is what you are capable of without the most basic of basics - which is to recognize who you are - then imagine what you can do with the true perspective of yourself.

Momo wrote on 17 Jan 2010 12:18:


1.) You're our beloved Momo, and you bother because you're worth it!

2.) Being sad, angry, and fed up, is a trick of the y"h, usually after we, c"v, fall.  Here, he is stooping so low as to try that trick on you beforehand.

3.) No, there's much more to Momo that going from one kumsitz to the next.  For one thing, you are Mechazeik so many people on this forum!

4.) Even assuming that you're correct (that you're "bound to fall anyway"), you're definitely not bound to fall TODAY.  We always need to stay focused on our Avoda for today.  Hashem does not expect more than that, certainly not from those of us with addictions.