dov wrote on 13 Sep 2010 16:58:
The extent and quality of the relationship you end up with (with anybody, not just Hashem) depends upon what you you put into it.
If I connect with my wife mainly as my personal candy machine, I get a relationship with a candy machine. Wow....profound...meaningful...satisfying...not.
Same l'havdil with Hashem. He can be my personal candy machine, sometimes I gotta pay for it, sometimes for free....still, all He is to me is my machine. OK, the machine has my name on it...but it's still basically a machine. He didn't make life to be that way! Maybe that's the way it is for malochim and for the stars, sun, and moon ("koach ugvurah nosan bohem...") - but not for us humans (yeah, the creatures that drink Woodford, as Reb b would put it.. ;D). For us there is a real G-d there! He took us out of 'beis avodim' - slaves are like machines! But now, we are out of beis avodim because b'ni b'chori Yisrael! We are His kids now! (so darshens the Sfas Emess on those p'sukim)
Wow Dov. That is profound.
So, if to me my daavening, learning etc only sems real when it gives me a good
feeling, then HaShem is to me my candy machine, and therefore when it does not
feel right i.e. I am not receiving my candy I go for the other candy i.e. acting out .
dov wrote on 13 Sep 2010 16:58:
So: we read the 13 middos and see just Who this G-d is! We want more than a candy machine? Then we gotta become yod'ey Hashem...whatever that means. Ask Yirmiyahu hanavi, who described it clearly and referred to His Rachamim.
And it takes time and work.
I confess that I now realize that I don’t know anything, except that if it is easy it is probably candy. I hope that I will soon understand what the real thing is.
Thank you Dov and thank you Barditchev. What I have received from both of you is priceless.
BTW I am trying to learn from this in my thread "another day"