:'(
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:'(
i sit here, literally dumbfounded, embarrassed by what i've done. for the first time in over a month, i've fallen two days in a row. i'm disappointed with myself and thats all i can say negative about this because you all as well as past experience testifies to the ability of positivity.
even though i fell today, i'm already trying to make tikkunim and really figure out where i go from here. i'm working through the attitude handbook but i feel like thats still the area where i need the most work. i did 10 minutes of hisbodedus/meditation about everything in my life with a focus on shemiras einayim. this will become a
daily habit. and now i'm working to slowly but surely develop more of a sense of discipline with regard to my internet use, how i spend my time in general, torah study and my thoughts.
right now, i think the biggest help i could use would be from guys that have made it through the first couple of days or weeks successfully, what are some tips to getting over this first hurdle?
sorry to disappoint. i pray as much as possible that this wont happen again. :-\