right now, i'm doing good. i just had an great phone conversation with Chazak Amenu (who BH is doing good although he's not on the forums anymore
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) and i have been listening to a few shiurim on naaleh.com (a website i definitely recommend). i guess the only problem is that i fell earlier today. i put up one of my best fights, but in the end, i didnt give the fight over to Hashem and trying to fight this battle alone obviously doesnt do me any good.
and now, posting on the forum of yet another fall, i've been having interesting thoughts. if i was any other member on the forum looking at how this "Shlomo" has progressed, i would certainly encourage him to keep moving forward and dust himself off. but in reality (though i dont think this of other members, maybe i'm just being harsh on myself), i'd wonder what this guys deal is. its been 7 months since he joined yet he still struggles to put double-digit streaks together. its weird thinking like this but trying to give myself that outsider's perspective is helping me to try and (slowly) change. i've mentioned discipline and focus in the past and now i'm continuing my struggle with these attributes as well. from this 3rd person perspective, it give me a new way to look at this battle, and in a weird way takes away some of the isolation, as it shows me that i need to connect with others to s
ucceed.
i hope everyone's rosh chodesh is inspirational and we can all ride through elul with Hashem's help.
Day 1 as always.