Hey guys,
i just wanna let u guys know im in my 58th day clean baruch hashem. I havent been posting on GYE for a while since ive been doing very well. 1 of my commitmnets were not to take my ipod touch to the bathroom, since that was my biggest downfall. Well 2 days ago i took it "just to watch the news", before i knew it i was watching inapproprite stuff
after 20 minutes of not stop videos i started to feel weird about myself, since i havent done it for 56 days ! I gota tell u it was SO TEMPTING to act out but b4 that i had to pray to hashem to get me out of this mess ASAP. right after my 2 min of praying my temptation dramastically decreased and i just threw my ipod to da side and just went out of the bathroom. So i still havent act out bh but i failed very much in not being shmiras einayim, It really effected me on how my next day went e.t.c . God willling il go to the mikvah hopefully to feel better aabout myself. I just wanted to keep u guys posted and thank u all for da avice that u have given me it really helped !