bentchkvatcher wrote on 26 Oct 2023 14:27:
the walk is the fall
its my escape from reality
Dear BentchKvatcher (I love the bentch),
I have been following you for a while, so I know what you're talking about. (Some of the guys who joined pretty recently aren't aware of what the walk means to you).
Here's some Chizzuk. You felt worse. You've come a long way. You don't really want it. You also do want it, especially when it builds up... Living is complicated.
White-knuckling isn't good enough to be a cure, but sometimes it gets us to a place where we are enough "out of the matzav" to feel a new Ratzon. I feel maybe you should think a little about why you wanted to take the walk, and if you REALLY wanted it, or just wanted what it would DO for you. Maybe there can be another way...
Not sure if this makes sense, I think maybe it does.
Either way, here's a hug and an encouraging hand.
Stay in touch,
Chaim Oigen