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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: First time keeping track seriously 15 Jun 2023 12:00 #397573

true_self Current streak: 42 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 528 Karma: 16	Yitz18 wrote on 14 Jun 2023 22:15: Just reached a week clean! Zman in my yeshiva ends soon and I fly home on Sunday- I am at home for 10ish days until I go to a summer kollel. Hopefully I can be strong during that short bein hazmanim. Hopefully I WILL be strong during that short bein hazmanim.
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Re: First time keeping track seriously 16 Jun 2023 08:22 #397659

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Yesterday managed to stay clean, but barely. Stayed up all night so I could watch my brothers graduation, and then slept in the morning. Right after I wake up is often a hard time. I ended up looking at untznius women through gifs on WhatsApp. Anyone know how to turn that off? It’s not as bad as pornography but still not good. I did that while masturbating for about 20 min and eventually stopped and decided it’s just not worth it to be motzi zera levatala. Need to get better at those times I wake up from naps. Still counting that as a clean day though since I stopped, so streak is currently 8 days.

Re: First time keeping track seriously 16 Jun 2023 15:09 #397676

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Yitz18 wrote on 16 Jun 2023 08:22:

Good for you!

"It is not our abilities that show who we truly are, it is our choices.” ---- Albus Dumbeldore (as per Chris Columbus)

Re: First time keeping track seriously 17 Jun 2023 23:51 #397708

Yitz18 OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Posts: 18 Karma: 1	Was clean over Friday and Shabbos. Right now it’s motzash and i had to get filter turned off for a thing with flights. I started looking at girls I knew online and eventually was watching pornography, in and out every few minutes. I was misgaber in the end and was not motzi zera. I just turned it off in the middle BH. Still have to avoid this obviously!!!

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 02:02 #397709

brokensoul Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Senior Boarder Posts: 62 Karma: 11	I also struggled with the WhatsApp gifs and eventually decided to uninstall it. It's a bit inconvenient for me but its for a greater good and I'm sure Hashem will help me do what I need to do without WhatsApp.
	"Life is good, even if it’s sometimes lonely and painful on the inside. " -Gevura Shebyesod My backstory: guardyoureyes.com/forum/43-SSA-Forum/385574-SSA-as-a-young-Bochur?limit=15&start=105#410929

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 04:15 #397715

Yitz18 OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Posts: 18 Karma: 1	Rabbosai, It’s Sunday morning and I just fell, was motzi zera. How do I disable WhatsApp gifs?

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 05:09 #397718

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Yitz18 wrote on 17 Jun 2023 23:51:

Was clean over Friday and Shabbos. Right now it’s motzash and i had to get filter turned off for a thing with flights. I started looking at girls I knew online and eventually was watching pornography, in and out every few minutes. I was misgaber in the end and was not motzi zera. I just turned it off in the middle BH. Still have to avoid this obviously!!!

גבורי כח עושי דברו!
I've been there, know how hard it is

"It is not our abilities that show who we truly are, it is our choices.” ---- Albus Dumbeldore (as per Chris Columbus)

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 06:47 #397719

frank.lee Current streak: 398 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 687 Karma: 21	Idk, but can you consider getting webchaver for your phone, so someone sees your screen activity?

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 08:55 #397721

boris868 Current streak: 1 day OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Posts: 1 Karma: 0	I have GenTech and the gifs don’t load in my WhatsApp.

Re: First time keeping track seriously 18 Jun 2023 21:41 #397744

Yosef90 Current streak: 30 days OFFLINE Fresh Boarder Posts: 14 Karma: 1	Yitz18 wrote on 18 Jun 2023 04:15: Rabbosai, It’s Sunday morning and I just fell, was motzi zera. How do I disable WhatsApp gifs? 9 Days is huge, don't put yourself down for falling. Keep inspiring us. Gentech filter doesn't allow whatsapp GIF's on my phone.