64 down, 24 left, should be b4 shuvos

67 with 23 days remaining...
It has been awhile since this moment, the biggest strategy was to have a chaver when in need. And figuring my own gedarim I needed which was a youtube challenge and low n behold it has been working BH.. 

Hatzlacha all

71’ done

 19 more 

74, goin s t r o n g

78 days complete! Bh thanks to the oilam for keeping in tune with me, from ups and down bh now on a steady path, bzh will be strong.



hatzlacha all

82 days complete, few left to 90

Make sure to plan for day 91 buddy. 

ofc, always looking 1 day at a time beh, and now at 84

It felt as just yesterday I did one day at a time and then 1 week then slowly it is being added up, baruch hasehem, anyone reading this- if you look through my forum you will see that my time I was seemingly capable was max 2-3 weeks, then 1.5 months, but to have a cognitive decision daily and progression with fully being aware and learning lots of this inyan along the way really helped me push,  tog of coarse with cheverim. BH I am not done, the challenge soon I may be,  but it will be my life, with the idea od one day at a time. Eventually, you are so strong that- you don't need that focus, just an awareness to avoid anything coming up.. and it should be great bzh.

THanks for reading see you soon!

86days complete 4 to get to 90...!

Hatzlacha and want to bentch all to be matzliach, this was impossible in my eyes at first and second and many thoughts later...
but with push I led to complete this with the chashuvey oilam- thanks

What a fantastic way to go into shavous! I'm counting on you to keep the pressure on to remain 5 days behind you. 

I am at 89!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one more day and goal done beh!!!

Thanks eraygrand!.. I love seeing such comments it's a great way of chizuk to me!

What is your next goal?

I'm getting a lot of Chizzuk reading through this thread.
True Gevura is in the long hard slog, the uphill climb.
I've climbed and fallen a lot. Was on my own until recently, and wasn't feeling the strength to keep pushing back against the dark wind.
Seeing your climb, your Emuna in the value of each victory, seeing how chizzuk from the chevra has kept it all alive.... It's an infusion of hope!
After 90 there will still be a slog. HHM is there to remind us there's always the next goal. But I know you know you have what you need, with Siyata Dishmaya

I admire you so much. When you hit 90 - please say a Kipiitle tehillim for all of us who are still on our way...

chaimoigen wrote on 22 May 2023 22:38:

90 days complete, thank you all that have helped get me here and thanks hhm for being there along with many others you know who you are!! I had a ratzon and charted there daily with such motivation, no matter the yetzer that I am craving at, I remind myself of what I want to be looked back on (entirely my own outlook of myself, not what people may think of me..because that will fall off once I am secluded alone etc..) - who do I want to be- a gibor of strength to overcome the unthinkable or the “pitty* potty guy” (where I don’t deal properly with my problems).

if you look back at my history of the forums- you can tell just of what I post is not even the slightest .1% of my failures I shared- I am really amazed at myself to help accomplish this (like legit no, legit- I am not saying this as a joke I “don’t just think I was one who fell many many times and different from everyone else), I was very stooped low and was past the numbing points of which I can’t even get help if someone tried to help me- I am really not chapping how this happened but the day by day, the chevra, the 90 update charts- all helped to work and get me to where I am at today!!

 Bh I aimed for Choice A - to follow my true ratzon guided with what hashem wants from me!! and I GOT THERE with 90 days Accomplished

and as well with like 10 weeks of no YouTube (challenge!)

it’s amazing of what power one can have once your mind is set straight, anyone can do it, I am a regular person, even to myself I can think that I am way below any sort of stature and yet STILL I had accomplished 90 days!!!

I hope the best to each one of you and to have the strength to accomplish! I am no where from over- but this is a stepping stone where it shows what koyach we have to accomplish now and for time to come Bh!!

Thanks chiaimogen and sure will, the chizuk is key!

To hhm: happy to have gotten this far, maybe now aim for 90+30 or +45 days more so 120-145 is better, I will keep in touch with some chevra, my apologies on all because I may leave off on gye, it’s been great and I hope many have seen my growth from the beginning till now and emertz hashem much more! I hope all can continue gaining from just watching each other and growing with each other beh!!

Beh I’ll check In soon!

mazal tov!! this is a real simcha for the community.
hatzlacha on your new goal (and your yt challenge), i hope we'll be able to continue watching your incredible story of strength and growth.