7 clean days
bh
thank you all for your help
it’s been damn hard
but I thought it impossible
And clearly it’s not
things that make it harder:
bored
tired
free time alone with internet devices
sad with life
things that help a little:
knowing that free p won’t satisfy me, and eventually I would land on paid p (cam sites) again, which is very destructive
and that I have no money and have debts (rent)
and that I would like to upgrade (replace) my phone and computer
and still owe my dentist a huge amount
oh and a more or less decent aversion, has been speed chess online. The adrenaline rush is quite something. (Please feel free to challenge me! Lichess.org, my username is shalegunfire, warning: I’m a nice guy in general, but not when you sit across the chessboard from me
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I personally won’t count masturbation towards 90 clean days. Quitting both paid AND free p would be absolutely huge for me.