Awesome! Amazing! Mazal tov!!

Keep up the great work, intellectual and spiritual! May you be zoche to Torah and Yiras Shamayim, in the best way!

You’re a special guy.
Dont give up and keep moving

So, as implied from my not posting for the last couple of days, I fell last Friday morning, after 24 days clean. Then I fell again Sunday and Monday, but now I'm not in the same place as the unfiltered computer anymore, so should be alright.IYH I'm going to be in camp from next week, so technically should be alright for the next 40 days unless something unexpected comes up (which is always what happens...). But hopefully I should be able to still pop in here daily IYH.

That's it for now, 2nd day clean boruch hashem.

Thank you for sharing. BH you are alive and healthy, with healthy urges. beH you will reach 40 days, then continue on to 90 and stay strong and holy!

I love your positivity! I think that is a very important tool to help grow in life and in this area specifically.

I give up.

ok, not really. But I can't do this myself, and I can't get myself to ask for help.

I hear. I reached a personal rock bottom before reaching out. Believe me it's not ideal...

Thanks for checking in!



Can you start reading the Battle of the Generation, for a bit every night?

Also, how are you falling now? You have unfiltered devices laying around? What is the next step you can take?

Update?

I have nothing to update 

Ok, you've had a month. Now whats your plan? We've all been through the nothing works stage, multiple times for me. But there's always another way

I don't know how to make a plan for the situation I was in. Other people might be different, but I haven't found anything that helped deter me when I'm in a place with unfiltered internet freely available.

Last week I started working in an out of town yeshiva, so I don't have access to Internet (except on my phone, which is filtered). BH I was clean the whole time I was there. And by clean I mean both from watching porn and masturbating (usually I was mainly focusing on not watching and considered that clean)!
unfortunately, I had to come back for a day or two, and I fell again, but once I go back I should IYH be able to get a good clean streak going.

A suggestion that has BH worked for many others - Maybe write up a 30 day contract that forbids use of any unsafe devices even for kosher purposes.  You can knas yourself a minimal amount for breaking your geder of using such a device even for just checking the weather. In concept you are declaring those devices as "muktza". Of course you can add an exception that if a very big need to use such a device arises, you may use it after contacting a friend (real or GYE) and telling them to hold you accountable for the next 20 minutes or so...   

Is there something that can push you for jsut 24 hours? (not really 24, just whatever hours you would have the nisayon)? Some thought, knas, distraction? Something else to do?

@hashem help me: hasn't worked for me long term, for various reasons (see previous posts).Either way, I'm on my way back to yeshiva now so should be alright for now (and today was also totally clean). For those that'll say not falling when there's no access isn't such an accomplishment - I agree. But every clean day is still a day.