I'm back Mr. Pickle.  hope your good as always!

hi guys.

Just checking in to let you all know i'm alive and well. Over worked, but well.

Beracha V'Hatzlacha from the Pickle-man.

Gut Voch and Gut Chodesh!!

Steve

Steeeeeve??

Sounds so familiar

Steeeeve??

Hmmmmmmmm...

I miss you steve! but playing your voice over in my head gives me chizuk...

who ish shteeeeveeeee??

Hi Steve!

Honestly, Mr. Mouse, you dont need re-runs, you can hear me on the airwaves anytime you want, 8:30-9:30 on AM. In fact, i'd love to have you make a cameo appearance! The airlift is waiting. (But dont expect to be paid).

Bardyboy, thanx for taking out the SIN in my name and replacing it with a SHIN. Nicest kick in the pants i've ever had…

Noya, thanx for saying HI. I'd rather be a Pickle, at least i can remain whole. But it's good to have friends to fall back on if i ever get into a Jam.

Words to the wise:

Always look up toward your Father in Heaven. Unless there is a flock of birds above you, in which case you look down, and watch your step.

Hi, Steve! 

Still alive. Still Kicking. Still can't believe i havent acted out in 475 days.

NOT TO SAY I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT IT. That's when i know i'm weaker in my recovery, that i'm slipping a little and have to go back to basics.

But I'm happy to report I passed a test last night that used to be impossible to live thru in the past without succumbing to temptation. Chasdie Hashem I lived thru it in a way that shows me my 'bechira point" has moved up a notch, and that particular circumstance will not be triggering to me anymore.

As the BBook says, if we remain spiritually fit, we can go anywhere where free men go without fear of succumbing to our addiction.

On another note, we are just 4 days away from docking into Port Freedom after our 17-18 week 12-Step cruise. And what a ride it has been! We have the most amazing crew of valiant sailors who are still sticking it out, bravely going into the 12th Step Stretch. They are truly an inspiration to me.

Steve.

Fantasico amiko!!

Just checking in.  Sounds like you're doing really great there.

--Eye.

Hi Gang.

I'm excited about our docking the ship tomorrow after 17 weeks in another Voyage to Recovery in our DC Freedom Flotilla. BH, we've all had a tremendous amount of growth and clarity of perspective. I am so fortunate to be a part of this chevra.

Looking forward, the next 'cruise' will be leaving port either Monday, May 2nd or May 9th. Everyone is welcome to join - stay tuned for any updates in schedule or times of the calls.

I also want to point out a beautiful vort i wrote here before last Pesach, and the link to that Journal entry is below.

Kol Tuv - Steve.

www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=1372.msg59734#msg59734

A Zeesa Isru Chag to everyone!

Still hanging in here, unfortunately not so much time to visit here in the Forum.

Just staying thankful for each day clean. I definitely see that when I have ANY degree of anxiety, the desire to lust even in simple 'girl-watching" ops sneaks in. And now that spring is hear, the potential triggers are coming out of the woodwork. But like the ants that appeared in the kitchen due to the surprise heat on Acharon Shel Pesach, the trick is to SPRAY FIRST!! Cover the perimeter on the outside they they don't get in in the first place.

Sam Ting mit loost. The 12 Step Program teaches us how to become Spiritually Fit, and when I am, the triggers can wiggle by and i just won't care to focus on them. not white knuckling, boys, but BLESSED INDIFFERENCE. And I'm SOOOO thankful to Hashem for giving me of His strength to become Spiritually Fit!!

KOL TUV,

Steve

Hi Y'all!

Hope your Yom Tov was filled with blessings and yeshuos from all your personal 'Mitzrayim"s.

Rav Dessler points out that LOVE is created by GIVING, not by taking. The more we GIVE to someone, the more we love them. So when in the Shema Yisroel we are commanded to love Hashem, how can we get there? By GIVING to Hashem. But how can we give to He who owns EVERYTHING? We read in Hallel - "What can i give to Hashem for all His kindness to me? The cup of salvation I will raise, and praise the Name of Hashem." All I can give back to Hashem is MYSELF - to try my best to be a good eved and son to him, and to "raise the cup" of my salvation by publicly praising him for his goodness and kindness to me.

To wit, I am overly thankful to Hashem Yisborach for this delicious milestone he has helped me reach, for by the Grace of G-d I have just reached 500 days clean and sober from the Big Bad M. And of course, I COULD NEVER HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT THE BOOSTER ROCKETS OF MY HIGHER POWER, YOU GUYS IN THE CHEVRA & THE GYE FORUM!

Every day is still a struggle to keep my eyes and my mind pure, but it's the struggle of recovery, B"H, and very rarely white knuckling (but to be honest, sometimes I have to get thru it that way still). B"H it's a reminder that I'm falling asleep at the wheel, and need to get back on course via Hashem and the Program Tools, before i careen off the highway and over the cliff.

May we ALL be zoche TOGETHER to give Hashem Yisborach the ultimate gift, to serve him with Kedusha and Tahara, to elevate our souls and fulfill His will always.

Kol Tuv,

Steve

PS - Next 12-Step Conference Call cycle is set to begin Monday, May 16, BEH"Y. Please join us for G6!!

How are you doing, Steve?

--Eye.