End of day 29, according to the Chart.
'nother late night searching thru the forum. Seems I found a pattern, and I'm asking my friends here for their honesty and advice.
Hmmmmm, not quite sure how to word this. So I'll go for broke.
Maybe it's just my insecurities cropping up again, it's a problem I'm working on. But I noticed a few times when I add my 2 cents to a thread, that the other posters just sort of dance around my comments/suggestions and either don't or hardly respond. And you know me by now, when I have an idea in my heart that I feel strongly will help be mechazik someone, I get it out even if it takes a long post. I type slow, and for me these long posts are a real investment in time. I've done it cuz I've felt SO compelled to try to help in what look like emergencies.
I've also spent a lot of time today, when I really should have been working, looking over the other threads, trying to be helpful getting the RahRah going after the Big Change. Some of it's been appreciated, some ignored.
So please be honest and tell me what I'm doing wrong, how I can change so as to still contribute without being burdensome.
Maybe I've been missing the point, that the conversation is bent a different way than I was going.
Or maybe by the time I finished typing, the gang has moved on and my post wasn't relevant anymore.
Or maybe people are just sick n' tired of my long-winded posts.
Or maybe i'm coming on too strong, sounding liken I'm too commanding or telling people what to do.
Or maybe you think that I think I'm G-d's gift to the Forum, an old Baal Geivah preacher. Or a DC 12-Step Program Poster-Boy.
PLease be honest with me. I haven't really been spending time here, which is what I started this for. Maybe I should limit myself to here, I'll share my days, my thoughts, or pontificate here from the sidelines, and stay out of everyone's hair. If you need me, you could find me here, ask me anything, and I'll try to give you the short version.
Maybe I'll actually get my work done, and finally be zoche to my parnose.