Hi,
For years, I've had problems with masturbating. About two months ago, I decided to take the plunge...but it's been hard-I'll have great streak, and then, poof-I'll lose control, and I'm back to square one...

You should complete the sentence ...  Sheva Yipol... VEKOM!

To fall seven times you have to have been up in between. The possuk tells us don't worry you will eventually stand without falling.

Your goal is not to conquer a life-long yetzer hora in one day! Simply putting up a fight is a tremendous accomplishment, and skipping this time, or even delaying it a little bit, is still worthwhile. Even if you ultimately do it, there is still value and tremendous sechar for every second you are able to be omeid b’nisayon.

I just wanted to share a Rashi at the beginning of Parshas Kedoshim (Perek Yud Tes, Posuk Beis, Dibbur hamaschil kedoshim tihyu): "Shekol makom sheAta motzeh geder erva ata motzeh KEDUSHA." Wherever one finds a guard against erva, one finds kedusha. I hope that this will serve as a bit of inspiration for those of us on this long and difficult journey.

Welcome! Hope to get to know your plight a little better. Keep posting!

another day in the books...

Rock n Roll!

TryingToBeBetter wrote on 04 May 2020 03:17:

 It is so good to see your great motivation! 
Please remember to always to celebrate your successes. Take small steps toward change, and celebrate each time you get it right. Also, spend time thinking about the emotions you felt when you decided to change. Think about what you want to change, and exactly how you want to act when you face particular challenges. Then close your eyes and visualize yourself making those choices.

THUD! :-(
And I'm back to the bottom...AGAIN
But I'll keep trying...
As an aside, even though I fell after only 8 days (I've hit 33 before), i really would've fallen a lot earlier, if not for a lot of hard work...so I guess I'm getting somewhere...

Dust yourself off and smash through!!!

once again, I only lasted a few days till another fall.
i feel like a piece of garbage that this keeps happening to me. (soory for the bad vibes, but I need to vent this somewhere...)

Sorry to hear.

Healthy thing to do is just get up and keep on going. I know it's hard.
Maybe share a little more of your struggle?

FINALLY!
I have a win to share!
Last night I had a major taavah, but I held myself in check, just thinking that it was like having a perfect game and losing it in the bottom of the ninth...AND BH IT WORKED!!!!!!!

TryingToBeBetter wrote on 11 May 2020 17:44:

BH!! 
Thank Hashem for giving you the strength for this win, and he'll give you much more going forward... 

Gonna try doing this again...
It's been an up and down year, but i"m 2 weeks in...and hoping it continues!

it's normal, don't give up!

every streak is a massive achievement and you are building yourself for the future .

keep going and your streaks will get longer