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This is going to be the time I get to 90!
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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 25 Nov 2019 10:52 #345371

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Hi REM

Just went and read this post from the beginning (skipped a bit and skimmed some others). It really is an inspirational read. Thanks so much for posting. I hope things go well.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 28 Nov 2019 06:13 #345529

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Thank you for the kind words

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 03 Dec 2019 09:59 #345685

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Hey REM

How you doing? Hope you are well!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 05 Dec 2019 06:26 #345756

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REPOST - I thought this made sense to be on my thread, but it is from another thread giving a chaver some short words. 

I am currently on Day 2 clean, but only last year I had a 250+ day streak!! See I found that I was so motivated to stay clean forever, but once I fell and I saw that I wasn't "cured" it became harder to keep up longer streaks then I became less motivated. It's hard to stay clean when it may only last a week or month..."Will I ever be clean?," "What is the point anyway?," and "Who am I fooling?" have become the types of thoughts that run through my brain. 

...BUT obviously I have a deep burning desire to do better than that. I desire to have a life that is productive and bears fruits, which means no wasting precious time on this earth with escaping to watch porn or sinning by wasting seed. HOWEVER, Hashem created us with certain desires (everyone in different ways) and I know he wants me to work on overcoming this. I know that this is my challenge in life and how I will get my share in the next world (among other areas I need improvement on...). 

WITH that being said, I applaud you for you incredible streak prior to this. It was an incredible achievement and as you mentioned it has given you certain tools and brought you to a higher level that will NEVER be lost. (#MuscleMemory)

I personally have tried to focus (thanks to the help from GYE members) on stopping watching inappropriate things, which I have been much more successful at in the past few months (my streak is mzl, but I havn't watched porn in longer than that). I HIGHLY recommend spending the few $'s to get a solid filter. If I offered you a couple more hours of your life a week for a few $'s, it would be a no brainer. Yes, your computer/phone may be a drop slower, but you will be happier and more productive person and it would be worth it.  

So I wish you much hatzlacha in your journey to continue climbing this mountain! After a relapse is a time to refocus on why you are doing this and decide what you are willing to sacrifice for it. GYE is a great resource and having a strong support system of friends and mentors are really helpful, but focus on short term successes and pulling out of the mud. Then it get's easier to climb. 

Sorry for the ramble, but I wanted to share my experience.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 05 Dec 2019 14:04 #345759

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Great post!  Nice to have you back.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 06 Dec 2019 05:10 #345797

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Okay folks! The mogul is back in the house!

I am going to get back to the name of this thread...I am going to get to 90 days again! Right now I'm pretty stuck in the mud and I gotta get back to that place where I am not blinded by being used to something. I gotta get back tl the level that I am not so easily sucked into falling. 

I am a bit excited that I feel a renewed strength, but I am also very much aware of the obstacles. The first two weeks will be excruciating, and then after that I will be vulnerable to the fear of building my sensitivity. My goal is to get to 90 days CLEAN and HOLY. 

My game plan is to post my journey, interact with GYE members for support, and take a daily dose of Ve'Ggie's (Victories and Gratitudes)

Please join me and support me on my renewed 90 day journey. While the trip/path I have taken before, this is a completely new journey that surpasses the prior journey. For every journey we take brings us higher and higher. 

#KeepClimbing

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 06 Dec 2019 14:43 #345806

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Realestatemogul wrote on 06 Dec 2019 05:10:
Okay folks! The mogul is back in the house!

I am going to get back to the name of this thread...I am going to get to 90 days again! Right now I'm pretty stuck in the mud and I gotta get back to that place where I am not blinded by being used to something. I gotta get back tl the level that I am not so easily sucked into falling. 

I am a bit excited that I feel a renewed strength, but I am also very much aware of the obstacles. The first two weeks will be excruciating, and then after that I will be vulnerable to the fear of building my sensitivity. My goal is to get to 90 days CLEAN and HOLY. 

My game plan is to post my journey, interact with GYE members for support, and take a daily dose of Ve'Ggie's (Victories and Gratitudes)

Please join me and support me on my renewed 90 day journey. While the trip/path I have taken before, this is a completely new journey that surpasses the prior journey. For every journey we take brings us higher and higher. 

#KeepClimbing

Wow! you're energy and willpower is amazing. It sure seems that you'll make it this time. Please post a daily post on the ups and downs so we can all cheer you along the way...

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 08 Dec 2019 02:53 #345822

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#CleanDay (look to the left if you want the number...I prefer to leave it out of my posts for now #Daybyday)

Dave T, thanks  for the post and support. BH I am still clean. 

It is an amazing thing how we often "blame" being stuck, when in reality we aren't too interested in being un-stuck....But then again reality is a funny thing lol

Anyway I'm still trying to go through the process and stay clean. So far it hasn't been too rough, but I ain't assuming it will be easy. I WILL give it my absolute best effort!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 09 Dec 2019 03:48 #345851

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"It's the eye of the tiger..."

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 09 Dec 2019 03:53 #345852

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Realestatemogul wrote on 09 Dec 2019 03:48:
"It's the eye of the tiger..."

Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
I'm all about that (substantial) bass, no trouble ....
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