I'm afraid he may have meant "other doors" were closing...
Rage, in case you fell, we understand you 100%.
Did you REALLY think you were super-man?
We totally love you to death and hope you don't let this get you down - or spiral.
The notion that we have to have it "NOW" - even RECOVERY, comes from the same place as the addiction ;-)
A quote from yesterday's shmiras ainayim e-mail:
No Instant Results
One of the greatest obstacles stopping a person from changing is the notion that it can be done without a lot of investment. We live in the generation of instant results, and we come to expect that whatever needs to happen should happen quickly.
Furthermore, we tend to forget that our whole purpose on this world is to change and improve. We tend to look at any weakness that we have as an "inconvenience" that needs to be gotten out of our way (or ignored), while in reality it's Hashem's personal message to us telling us exactly what He sent us to this world for.
So what usually happens is, that it doesn't even occur to a person to really spend time, energy and "focus" on improvement. Hashem tells us,"T'na b'ni libcha li - My son, give me your HEART", it means your whole heart.
The Vilna Goan asks how a person can know what their purpose for coming to this world is. How are we to know what our most intimate and personal challenge is; i.e. the very reason for our creation? The Vilna Goan answers that we can know this by seeing what areas are most difficult for us to control, and what issues challenge us most frequently. It is for those areas that we were sent to the world to fix.
So if this struggle is a major issue in your life, it is likely that this is your own personal Tikkun in this world. And if this is one of the main issues you came down to the world to fix, it stands to reason that you may have to spend a long time in this struggle. So don't despair if process seems slower than you wish, or if it even looks like you are going backwards sometimes.
Even if we slip, we haven't lost previous gains at all. A low point in the struggle doesn't show where we are truly holding. It is simply an opportunity to make NEW gains.