GrowStrong wrote on 27 Mar 2017 10:20:

With sufficient exposure anyone can become addicted. This is true of all addictions (my limited understanding). Circumustances and a hell of alot of mazel determine whether the kid will get addicted. Small things... Like whether he first saw porn at his friends house, or his friend showed him how to access it on his own PSP (giving him unfettered access to explore). 

I doubt too many people become addicted by seeing one picture of a naked woman. 

Sorry if this is a little yuck but I want to write this out. For documentation maybe. If you're easily yucked you can stop reading now. 

Ok here goes. On around day 30 I had a wet dream. Don't remember what it was about. But it was of the type that you orgasm while sleeping. Last night I had my second one. This time though there was no orgasm. Just woke up a bit wet. Maybe I dreamt about something a bit lewd, not sure really. Definitely not sex. Even the first one wasn't. More subtle stuff. Like someone not so modestly dressed. 

Really annoying! I just took a shower last night and I always feel the need to shower after this happens. 

We have hundreds of addicted non-addicts on this forum who can vouch to the dangers of over exposure.

ihave, wet dreams are not something to get down on yourself for. Chazal call it an onais, so we dont have to be smarter than them. In reality it is something of a good sign. Your body is used to producing zera, and you are not bringing on the release as often as in the past, so it happens..... Iyh as you recover more and more, your body and brain will adjust, and wet dreams will subside too. Taking a shower is a normal reaction as is a one minute tefilla to Hashem to spare you from this in the future, telling Him you want to keep your kedusha intact. And every time you look away from an inappropriate sight, you move further away from having these uncomfortable experiences.

GrowStrong wrote on 27 Mar 2017 13:22:

I don't understand this sentence. Would love if you could explain! Thanks

Day 45: Halfway​ there. Woot woot! A small step in the right direction. I'm truly lucky to have made it this far. So many variables involved... Thank you Hashem. My life is far from perfect. I don't know why I have to go through this, but that should hardly come as a surprise. Even the wisest are like fools before you.  ...כי לא מחשבותי מחשבותיכם

A blonde swam halfway to the island got tired and swam back.

Not blonde thankfully. 

Ihavenostrength wrote on 27 Mar 2017 18:59:

Still working on the thesis, but I was basically agreeing with you. I will get back to you with a better explanation I hope...

Ihavenostrength wrote on 27 Mar 2017 19:48:

Amazing work, dude. A word of caution. 90 isn't the end all. Many people have reached 90 and slipped. For me, the goal is to live one day at a time. ODAAT isn't a means to an end for me. It's the actual goal. I just want to follow my Higher Power's will for 24 hours. That's it. You might be doing that already!

Shlomo24 wrote on 27 Mar 2017 21:42:

Thank you! Word of caution is greatly appreciated. I can never have enough reminders. 

I've been trying to live one day at a time. Iy"h I'll get the level you're describing. For now, I can't say I've really been trying to follow my higher power's will. I mean... maybe a little.

I don't really know what Hashem wants from me. There is torah and mitzvos of course... I'm a frum Jew... 

I'm guessing Hashem does want me to work on this though. Without sanity... Without being a human being on the most basic level, I can't even begin to reach anything higher. 

I assume that most people who believe in a higher power believe he created us to do something. To function. Right now I'm dysfunctional. So yes, I suppose I am trying to follow my higher powers will I'm trying to get to the point where I can possibly be of use. 

These thoughts were inspired by your post. Not really sure what they are. Maybe a response, maybe commentary. Dunno, just thoughts I guess. 

You should be proud of the halfway mark. You are doing the ratzon Hashem even when it is not easy at all. You are standing up to the yetzer hora and saying no. Imagine the simcha in shomayim watching us suffer through it down here and trying so hard. As all advise, keep it up one day at a time, daven for s'yata d'shmaya, but be proud of yourself too.

One day at a time!! (ODAAT)

Best of luck!!! you seem conscious of the things that cause many to slip and so you can use them as a learning experience to plan ahead!

Giving me a lot of chizuk, so thanks as well.

Mazeltov for halfway

Hatzlocha for all the way.

Day 46: You always have to prepared to change your approach. You have to know yourself. What is ok for today may not be enough for tomorrow. What you need today may be detrimental for you on a later date.

Day 47: Grateful to have made it this far. My life isn't​ being managed that well right now, but I'm hopeful. Read through the entirety of my thread last night. Listened to the first 2 calls of Dov's 12 step workshop. I relate to his descriptions of his own addiction almost entirely. 

full steam ahead!!!!!!!!!