day 17

status quo cept the urges weren't there at all didn't think feel a thing today b"h

still good com. with wife

B"hatzlacha

day 18

really tired but feeling good spent 2.5 hrs talking with my new chavrusah seems that this bochur has been really burnt years back and doesn't even realize it....it was cool to be able to give him chizuk based on many things i've read here....

BABY HAS AN EAR INFECTION   b'h already have the antibiotics here's to long sleepful nights!     

day 21

doing well fast went well plan on listning in to the annual meeting tonight/afternoon.

karma's back wonder what will be posted on that thread of markz....

Karmas back and yours is on the rise  

Karmas back? Where?

Karmas back? Where?

please tell me your' joking....but if you're not try to log out close the tab and log back in.



B'hatzlacha

day 2
three weeks should I be feeling something because I totally do not....

hey singularity why did you change your' avatar? (hope you are not losing your' singular personality  )

thanks613 wrote on 09 Jan 2017 01:48:


thank you might i ask what have I been doing to deserve this? (just want to keep it up)

MayanHamisgaber wrote on 09 Jan 2017 21:39:

Great point. Great post. Simple though it is.

I'm not such a vet with sobriety/"staying clean" (yet!), but unfortunately I think that not feeling ecstasy and bliss is pretty normal.

I've heard Dov say about sobriety/"being clean" something like "I tasted integrity and I didn't want to go back.."  I was thinking about this last Shabbos, 'cause I don't exactly feel like all my problems are gone by any means, but I do feel good about being sober/clean and being able to feel more respect for myself.

MayanHamisgaber wrote on 09 Jan 2017 21:39:

I opted for something a little less intimidating. That Zuko is like, whoa man. Don't mess with him.

Don't think you should be feeling anything. Physical pleasure, lust, this world, it's all about instant feeling. What's the best feeling in the world? Years of discipline, practice, refinement. Then a moment of intimate peace, oneness with you and your God, as you sip your delicately bubbly lemonade as you rock, slowly, on the creaking chair on your balcony, glazed in the brilliance of the Pacific sunset.

Taste the victory.

thanks and singularity 

thanks for the feedback guys.So just to make sure that we are on the same page I was talking about not feeling anything in staying clean for three weeks no excitement or something like that in fact I'm pretty lethargic about it (my wife said yesterday a few times that I lost my sense of humor she she was making a joke about something nothing to do with this)

I realize that I might be having with drawl from everything but I really don't think that I'm an addict (yeah yeah that's what they all say I know)

thoughts anyone?

B'hatzlacha

You might not be an addict.
Not everyone is an addict (okay Dov I said it, can you put your gun away now?)

But the 12 steps could benefit anyone (Please don't shoot me!)

With the clarification of your intentions when saying you don't feel anything, I still think my words have context.
I don't feel withdrawal, BH. Am I not an addict? I'd better tell my fellowship.

Singularity wrote on 10 Jan 2017 09:26:

Thanks for getting back

lol I get why you are scared of Dov but in this case I think that he will agree with US (if he wants to shoot he has to shoot me first)

true that the 12 steps can benefit anyone but I don't think that I need them right now (Cordnoy please don't shoot me)
so I can't find time to call into or go to a meeting.


I think that I agree to you about the feelings thing just wantednto know if this is normal or not

would love to hear the opinion of others if something was left out (or even if not)
thanks

B'hatzlacha

Yeah, we're on the same page.  

About feeling "lethargic" I don't really know what to say.  I don't know that you have to call it withdrawal in the sense of addiction, but it makes sense to me that the excitement of working towards being clean wears off after a while and we can start to feel kind of empty when it does.  

thanks613 wrote on 11 Jan 2017 05:29:

Unless of course we begin living life at that time.