Keep on trucking, man! Wow, so you made 90 days before? Amazing! If you can do it once, you can definitely do it again!

imtrying25 wrote on 24 Nov 2009 22:59:


Oh no...
I'm SO sorry I came across that way. When I said I appreciate criticism, I was NOT referring to your comment at all. I was just saying that I like receiving constructive criticism in my thread. Intelligent debate is one of the greatest ways to learn and grow. Please continue to post here, and have no fear; nothing anyone says (including you) will offend me. :D

What MY words dont offend you??? Why thats totally offensive!!!! Do you realize who i am???? :D :D ;D ;D :D ;D

This post is for Wednesday the 25th (day 6), even though it's already the 26th (3AM) here. I don't have too much to report, as the day was pretty uneventful. I felt bad that I slept in so late that I missed the phone conference, but I guess that's what happens when you go to sleep at 4AM. On another note, it's been about a year since I missed putting on tefillin! I find it hard to believe that I so often deliberately skipped something which takes so little effort. Shame on me...
Anyway, I will attempt to make a new post here every day (except shabbos and yom tov), even if I have nothing new to say, because it keeps me connected to you guys. Enjoy your turkey if that's your thing, and if not, enjoy not eating turkey. Whatever floats your boat... :D

I think thats a great idea. I can safely say that my posting here definitly keeps me from doing or thinking things that i shouldnt. And like i always say....whatever tops your turvy. Get  it?

Ano, you da bomb! (Or shall I say "cannon ball"?  )

guardureyes wrote on 26 Nov 2009 12:23:


Guard, your English surprises me sometimes.  Have you had supplementary courses in Ebonics as a second language?

Welcome back Any Nymous.

I just got back on to the forum a day after you. I went through a  simiilar break.
But its good to be back and today I am going to sign up for a partner.

Welcome back StrivingJew! Your name says it all. With a name like that, how can you NOT succeed? I just want to make clear that even though I wasn't on the forum, it's not like I was watching porn every day. I was still VERY VERY good (I would say I watched porn between 5 and 10 times in those 5 months, and never masturbated outside of those times). I just realized that I wanted to switch from the fighting method to the surrender and connect to god method, because I don't want to live a life of "only" watching porn here or there. It is unacceptable for a civilized human being (which I consider myself to be), even if you completely leave aside the religious issues, and it will wreak havoc on a marriage (lots of proof to that here). And if I am doing something- which I DO NOT want to do- on a somewhat regular basis, it means I am not in control of myself at all. This is not the way a person (again, forget being Jewish; it's irrelevant) is supposed to live. So I'm here, and I'm going to attempt to work God into my life and let him help me out (you just have to LET him in!). I'm surprised that Duvid Chaim doesn't have more people on the calls (there were 14 the first time I called in and 10 today). The calls are GREAT, and leave me feeling so inspired. I believe that the reason more people don't call in because "only addicts call in, and I am certainly NOT an addict." I myself am not an "out of control" addict, but according to Rabbi Twersky's definition of an addict, if on a regular basis you find yourself doing things which you KNOW you should not do, and do NOT want to do, you ARE an addict. Anyone who fits this definition (which probably includes almost visiting this website) will most likely benefit from applying all or part of the 12 steps in their daily lives.

P.S. Today is day 7. Happy thanksgiving everyone!! Enjoy your turkey :D

I would like to join the call. But the timing usually doesnt work well with my schedule.
I would like to add an marshall to what you posted earlier.
When someone like you or anyone who strives and succeeds in keeping his sobriety for an extended period of time and then has a fall, is like a person who climes a mountain and falls, so the only thing the person has to do is get up before he falls down the mountain even further. So this person is much higher on the moiuntain than he was when he started. We all are in essence in the same situation when we fall and get up right away.
We shouldnt care how many times we fall as long as pick ourselves up right away to carry on with the climbing.

StrivingJew wrote on 26 Nov 2009 21:57:


100% agreed. You NEVER go back to square one just because you have a fall (although the YH would certainly have you believe that you do).

Why you aks?

Heh Heh

guardureyes wrote on 26 Nov 2009 22:21:


Guard, it's properly spelled "why you axe?"

Today is day 8. I spoke with Duvid Chaim on the phone a few minutes ago. He's quite something. Have a great Shabbos everyone!!

Today (Shabbos) was day 9. Nothing interesting to report, except that I'm looking forward to Duvid Chaim's phone conferences. No serious challenges yet, but that's because I rarely get the urges anymore the way I used to (all thanks to this site, of course). So I just realized that 10x9 is 90, which means I'm already 10% of the way there!! That sure happened fast! I'm going to start posting in as many other people's threads as I can, because then maybe they'll then post in my thread. Reading your posts is the biggest inspiration you guys, so PLEASE, if you're reading this, post something! I'm dying here :D