I want to hear a chorus now. "Me too!, Me 2!, Me 2!"
You are a true inspiration... Kol Hakavod on your progress, and especially impressive on the Shmiras Ainayim! The thoughts take time, unfortunately... But the fact they stick around is what really helps us grow in the long term. Because we need to keep fighting. Like Be-Holy posted yesterday:
Then it came to me, that contradiction within us is the sand that grinds away in the clam, to make a beautiful pearl. meaning that if we never feel down and are ALWAYS up we never really are being pushed to grow, and those feelings shouldn't be used to get us down but rather to make us aware of our present state of being and where we need to continue to work on. See
this page for some ideas to help with the thoughts...