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im coming home! 08 Jan 2013 04:54 #200764

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hi everyone! im new to this recovery thing, but im definitely likig it. i keep reading about everyone climbing to 90 and im ready to try it for myself.

ive been stuggling with the internet now for a long 12 years. im in my low 20s so i was pretty much there from the beginning of the internet problem. throughout my years in yeshiva i attempted many times to stop, all to no avail. but enough is enough, ive been made aware of the avenues for help and recovery, and i dont intend to stick around to see what happens if i wait any longer.
coming here gave me and continues to give me so much needed chizuk. a previous misconception of mine was that someone with these issues is really someone shameful with things to hide. while on the outside they may lok like regular people but on the inside, much less pretty. now that i have arrived here though, i see nothing but heroes. hiding behind the sunglasses of clever psuedonyms, the heroes save the day, one day at a time. so in a way its true its only on the outside that we look like regular people, because on the inside the truth shines bright. the gye website is our phone booth and were all crammed in together. i used to have a me against myself mentality, now its US against the world!
to the top chevra!

this is only my first post but its day 7 for me.(time flies when lifes looking better)
i welcome and incourage all comments of any sort, chizuk from everyone, the more the merrier.

Re: im coming home! 08 Jan 2013 22:05 #200780

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Baruch HaShem! You sound just like me with having been there since the beginning of the internet problem and having tried on your own to stop so many times. Mazel tov on your surrender to HaShem! May He empower you and show His grace as you overcome this struggle!

Re: im coming home! 08 Jan 2013 23:11 #200784

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Well, so much for 'clever pseudonames'...my name is Dov. It's what my wife, neighbors and recovery amigos call me every day. Yudel - or whatever your name is - thanks for taking this step and posting here. Your honesty is what makes this place work for so many! Elior (or really, whatever his name really is) is so right - you are not alone, you are geshmak, and welcome home!
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: im coming home! 09 Jan 2013 00:45 #200789

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Welcome Yudel! You're not alone by far. Glad to have you aboard!

Re: im coming home! 09 Jan 2013 04:21 #200797

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8 great days, feels like chanukah come early:lol: (or late)
Last Edit: 09 Jan 2013 04:22 by yudel2123.

Re: im coming home! 09 Jan 2013 06:24 #200799

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yudel2123 wrote:
8 great days, feels like chanukah come early:lol: (or late)


You felt like you only had enough strength to last one day and you lasted for eight
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: im coming home! 11 Jan 2013 03:26 #200885

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day 10 was ushered in on a royal carpet of pristine white snow. a pure blanket covering the landscape. a harbinger of many pure days to come. the snow yet melts, but my resolve does not. i think ill celebrate my ten day anniversary with a l'chaim, woodford of course
Last Edit: 11 Jan 2013 03:27 by yudel2123.

Re: im coming home! 11 Jan 2013 04:43 #200893

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Double barrelled reserve?
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: im coming home! 11 Jan 2013 04:49 #200894

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Dov,
in order to succeed you need the best tools in your arsenal. you need to call up all the reserves.

Yoni

Re: im coming home! 12 Jan 2013 00:25 #200911

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now yer talking
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: im coming home! 13 Jan 2013 05:05 #200921

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a shabbos of budding redemption, strengthening emunah, and preparation for better times yet to come. day 12 past with thoughts of geulas mitrayim which chazal tell us is the source for all future redeemings. with hashems help this too will be our ticket out from under the influences of lust.

Yoni

Re: im coming home! 14 Jan 2013 04:31 #200930

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at 13 one becomes a man in jewish law. so today i became a man of days. happy 13th to me. and thank you to all the gye chevra for your support and chizuk!

Yoni
Last Edit: 14 Jan 2013 04:32 by yudel2123.

Re: im coming home! 15 Jan 2013 04:32 #200966

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14! 2 weeks! maybe not yet chai, but dai we have reached. enough is enough. life must go on, the problems must not.

Yoni

Re: im coming home! 16 Jan 2013 04:12 #201006

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Last Edit: 16 Jan 2013 04:13 by yudel2123.

Re: im coming home! 16 Jan 2013 04:22 #201007

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Su-weet!!

IY"H veiter!

Eli
Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi
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