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Re: My Journey (back to myself) 07 Jan 2013 22:39 #200746

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Noach would have said "40 days and 40 nights", I think... Mazel Tov Joe!!!
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 08 Jan 2013 04:22 #200763

yudel2123 OFFLINE Junior Boarder Posts: 24 Karma: 1	jjblue13 you have really inspired me to get off the ground and rebuild. heres to 90 for you, 90 for me, and many more!! looking forward to only simchos for everyone!!

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 10 Jan 2013 00:54 #200827

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Day 43 Got a little slippy today, so I came to get some chizuk! Thanks everyone!
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 10 Jan 2013 20:22 #200864

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Fell this morning. Was searching for something and misspelled a word, when an image I would rather not have seen came up, I got carried away ... until I fell New count starts today (and I hope to beat my record of 43!) So now I have 43 days of eternity. Btw Dov, "Joe" was the nickname my wife a"h used just between the two of us.
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity Last Edit: 10 Jan 2013 20:24 by jjblue13.

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 10 Jan 2013 23:49 #200880

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	i admire your levelheaded approach
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 11 Jan 2013 03:13 #200884

yudel2123 OFFLINE Junior Boarder Posts: 24 Karma: 1	when u fall a part of all of us falls with you, thats why were all here together with you, pulling you back up. youre never alone and we all have your back. keep on trucking!!

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 11 Jan 2013 04:40 #200892

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Sorry, chaver if my using that name brought any pain to you. You had a perecious gift from that woman and I admire your showing peace and sweetness so often here, rather than the bitterness, R"l, that some turn to after loss. As far as the fall, you recognize it and are not hiding. You are a very fortunate man! We all have ups and downs. A continued good day today to you, chaver.
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 11 Jan 2013 19:42 #200905

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	I found a great book for chizuk called "GPS: Navigation for Your Soul" publised by Shaar Press. It will probably be more helpful to those not yet addicted or those in an early stage of addiction, like the The Torah & Chizuk Approach section. It should be available at your local sfarim store (that's where I found it). It's written in a direct yet entertaining style.
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 16 Jan 2013 06:24 #201015

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Day 5
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 17 Jan 2013 06:00 #201071

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Day 6
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 18 Jan 2013 06:08 #201123

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Day 7 Here is a link included in yesterday's chizuk email. If you don't get the email (sign up now ), or didn't check it out yet, check it out *now*, it has a really powerful message. The Daffodil Principle
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 01 Feb 2013 23:23 #201690

jjblue13 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Im ain ani li? Mi li? Posts: 70 Karma: 3	Day 22 Good Shabbos!!!
	לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do) ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 02 Feb 2013 01:47 #201703

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Welcome Back!! Good Shabbos Eli
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 03 Feb 2013 08:42 #201716

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Day 23

I've been off GYE for a couple weeks due to lack of internet access. One thing I discovered, though, is that since I haven't been posting, I haven't given much thought to this whole inyan, and therefore have not had any challenges! My conclusion is, that although I gain tremendous chizzuk from everything posted here, I may just be better off not hanging around here so often.
So although I won't be posting as often, I remain a member as "Kollel Guy" was quoted saying in Friday's Chizzuk email.

Kollel Guy

Hey everybody,

In case you're wondering where I was, I recently decided that the computer is lately the main and central obstacle in my life right now. I have decided to cut the computer out of my life completely (my wife is typing this for me). I haven't touched the computer for a few days already, and today was my second day in Kollel, learning normal sedarim (I hadn't been going to Kollel for months).

When I get my printer working again, maybe I will get my wife to print out the white-book of SA and the big book of AA, so I can read it without the computer. I still have a phone sponsor, so I am out of isolation, and I'll have my wife open up GYE here and there for me to see what's been going on recently.

I'll really miss you guys. You got me to places which I never thought I would get to. Both with your advice and suggestions - when trying to help me and others, as well as with your questions and calls for help, which helped remind me that I am normal and struggling with a very common problem, and not just a mess which "me the loser" ended up with.

The truth is, I am not leaving GYE. I can never do that, even if I never post again. I'll always be a GYE member, and I'll always take pride in that.

Hatzlacha Rabba with your own goals, and Hatzlacha with your avodas hakodesh of helping other Yidden with their goals.

Kol Tuv,
Kollel Guy

For me as well it seems that the computer is a hindrance to my living in REAL life.
Yossel

לב טהור ברא לי אלוקים
My essence is ALWAYS pure (no matter what I do)
ורוח נכון חדש בקירבי
But if I start slipping ... PLEASE return me to sanity

Last Edit: 03 Feb 2013 08:45 by jjblue13.

Re: My Journey (back to myself) 03 Feb 2013 10:34 #201719

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Yossel! That was beautiful!! You are so right. Hatzlocha one day at a time, chaver! I'm staying in the salt mine only because I am an addict working my 12th step. Who knows - maybe we will meet on the outside sometime - or maybe we already know each other in shul! In any case, all the best, G-d bless you, man.
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."