guys i fell this Shabbos and im pickin' myself up illkeep em posts comin' and keep everyone updated on my progress this is my first real commitment to gye and i intend to do myself justice A GUTE VUCH to all us truckers

Real commitment is a start
A gameplan is what it takes.
What's on the agenda?

Hit the ground running!
are you on the 90-day chart yet?
Do you have fences in place for when the next "lust attack" hits you?
Hatzlocho and a gute voch!
Mottel

Emunah how's it going?

Thanx for asking alex im doing amazing im soaring i am clean for 2 weeks B"H I just ran in to a slight problem i get so scared of falling again that i drive myself crazy i dont want to have to start over again arent all the guys clean for any stretch of time scared anyone have tips for me?

emunah18 wrote on 15 Jan 2012 04:22:

Hey there I'm with you on the scarediness,
You're ahead of me so I really shouldn't be talking (I'm clean for eleven days)!
Anyway, they keep stressing all over this site and in the handbooks:

"Take the 90 days “one day at a time”. We can’t eat or sleep today for tomorrow, and we can’t stay
sober for tomorrow either. One addict who is already sober for 20 years was wont to say, “Just
for today I won’t act-out, even if my backside falls off!” (and it never did :-)"

So let's hope our backsides don't fall off ;D !!!
Good luck to both of us!!

Just let go of the fear.

Acting out is not in your control.

You're an addict.

You are powerless over lust.

If you try to be in control, you will fail.

Admit that you are powerless, and let the RBS"O take control.

If you give Him control of the wheel, it is no longer your job to worry, and you don't need to fall apart.

Thanx shteeble normally i find it very helpful to just give up so to speak and just daven that i shouldnt fall it is a very liberating feeling. I just started the12 steps and am on the 1 i will try not to feel in control thanx

The only time i face fear or feel afraid is when i look at the future.  i must focus on today and today only, or this hour or this minute or this second only because it is only "now" that i can deal with anyway.  i have found relief in not only turning my lust over to Hashem but also anger and fear.  Though i am not an anger addict or fear addict just a lust addict it works just the same.
BTW, CONGRATULATIONS ON TWO WEEKS CLEAN!!!!  AWESOME!  FANTASTIC!
Remember how you got here, one second then one minute then one hour then one day then one week at a time.  Live the present because that is all you have.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

thanks im still clean but i was scared about shabbos it is the hardest day for me and after i read all this i felt relieved cuz im just dealing with the now and today  shabbat shalom to all

I am still so scared i am probably going to fall again and i just dont know when thats how i feel

Do you have anyone to talk to?  SA meetings in your area?
pm me if you need someone to talk to on East coast USA
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

I fell again after 23 days clean at first i felt terrible but now a week later im in the clouds How was i able to do it Im clean for 8 days boruch Hashem i guess im starting again now shalom everyone and have a good Shabbos

recovery is a process.  as long as you are progressing you have what to be happy about.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

I fell again on monday I wanted to do it so badly that I couldnt stop myself and mastu.... twice I couldnt control myself and I couldnt admit that that was the problem i just said to myself i didnt do it in so long big deal if I do it now and than i fell