Sometimes this feels too easy, sometimes it feels insurmountable. I think that might be the most frustrating part of this ordeal. You never know when it's going to hit. YOu have to always be on guard, become paranoid about shmiras einayim (not a bad thing, but hard, and draining), and always be mentally preparing yourself for an onslught, likely to happen when you least expect it.
I guess part of winning ling term in this war is, like in every other war, a good intelligence network. The more experience you have fighting the fight, the better you can learn your enemy's attack vectors and maneuvers. Once you set up the proper defenses to counter the known attacks, you can rest a little easier. The attacks won't stop, but your defenses can defeat most advances. Every once in a while, you're forced to tweak those defenses, strengthen them, and add to them. This is life, and this is spiritual and personal growth.
Many of us are at a point where we are constantly bombarded with brutal and devastating attacks from the YH, some worse than others. We have no defenses, so we feel helpless and hopeless in the dark wilderness of the untamed battlefield. We can only start building defenses if we decide that we can, and we have some help from an external force. As we start building those first primitive walls, we look at the ever-present attacks and wonder how this is even possible. The defenses are being built, but can we do this in the face of the enemy for an extended period of time? It doesn't always seem like it.
This site offers a wonderful advantage. It gives a birds eye view of the global war, and we see the grand fortified palaces built by people in the same situation. We see that with the same strength, the same determination, and the same patience, we can build an equally grand palace of peace, tranquility, and freedom. All of a sudden, we have an attainable goal, and the war seems winnable.
I love this analogy, and I hope to build on it as this journal progresses.
