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I should like to tell you that if you "put in a lot of effort", that could make things actually more difficult. At least it is for me. The thing is
to do other things and become preoccupied with other things. They don't even have to be important, at least not at first. Things that you find that you want to do. If that includes  more really positive things like torah and mitzvos so much the better. But if that does not work, anythng.  At least that's what I do, if necessary. And it seems necessary pretty often. Examples: Learn to fly (seriously - as an example), a  musical instrument, help out  someone, build something. Learn a computer language. Whatever.

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I do focus on other things but when I feel the urge I think I need to resist stronger.

I plan to do fifty push ups when I feel the urge.

I broke my rules and I fell again. I will at least 50 push ups for breaking my rules.

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I have come to realize that it is very possible that the only thing I can control is using the internet. Therefore I avoid it as much as possible. Until now I knew this but I did not treat gong on line as a dangerous activity. Now I avoid it. I hope I wont be posting here alot and if I do ask me why I'm here.

Tomim thanks for your insightful posts.

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Just making a brief visit online. Yesterday was a no internet day. I had a strong urge to go online but I know 1.it is only an urge 2.Hashem is making it to give me to opportunity to overcome it and since Hashem is causing it right now OF COURSE I can overcome it. 3.Going online wont make me happy and wont make it go away I will be happy tomorrow that I withstood it today.

keep on floating/swimming/treading

just do not drown

I am reminding myself that I cannot trust my judgement regarding internet use. I don't stick to my own rules and once I am online things generally don't end well. What I can do is stay offline as much as possible. When I go online I am taking my life in my hands. I want control of my life so to do that I avoid the internet. i only use it where i can be seen and when people are around.

I was wondering what determines what level member one is?

Holy Yid wrote on 11 Aug 2009 18:50:


It has to do with the number of times you've posted.

Holy Friends,
It is with great joy that I mark 14 days clean. This is a record for me and most probobly a record for bein hazimanim also. May you all have succses

The Holy Yid is becoming holier by the day!  Chazk v'Ematz!!

In a chat with Holy Yid today he disclosed to me that he's reached a streak of 50 days! He didn't want to write about it himself because he's afraid that his pride might get the best of him and shlep him down. With his permission I write about it now.

Chevra, 50 days! Unbelievable! Mazel Tov Holy Yid!

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