Strangely enough, it happens to almost be a year since I signed up to this forum. I haven't been on very often - partly because until September, I was in yeshiva with no regular internet access, and partly because I was still too embarrassed to be on much.

I'm going to count 90 clean days.

I came across something in the last couple of days. A site - which shall remain nameless - where frum people posted for years about concerns and questions they had about intimacy, mostly people recently married or about to be married. (It's closed now.)
I'm still not sure how it makes me feel, but part of me feel sort of........ better.
I could have learnt that from here at GYE, but this seems to have sparked something. I'm not strange or abnormal, I just need to learn to control myself... what is and is not ok...

A random thought a day keeps the yetzer hora away.

I'm going to post a few lines every day for 90 days bli neder. What you'll find - I can't say. I might talk about music, weather, math (which I'm studying), computer games, or even torah ;D  One update per day, for 90 days. I've tried this before. Let's try again.

Thank you GYE, for giving people like me a chance.

This is day 0.

beinhazmanim wrote on 08 Mar 2011 00:19:


What? Dedicated to me? I'm touched! I'll be rooting for you, and can't wait to see you on the other side...

... Or is the beginning of a Smiley?? 


Or is Reb O beginning to smile?!

Welcome back! Posting is something that I've always found to be very useful, and was a big part of my recovery.

Yosef Hatzadik wrote on 08 Mar 2011 18:05:


Hey - dont push it  >

there is a gemach you know
www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=3159.0

o wrote on 08 Mar 2011 08:43:


I'm afraid you're being slightly optimistic in terms of the dedication there... but thanks for taking an interest 


Well, not such a bad day - in every way. (Great to see the start of spring. The weather's suddenly much nicer!)
Thanks all who dropped by, and make me feel like other people are actually reading this. It's appreciated.

A short thought for today: What do you get if you cross a joke with a rhetorical question?


This is day 1.

beinhazmanim wrote on 09 Mar 2011 00:20:


Answer: A smile!

Yosef Hatzadik wrote on 09 Mar 2011 15:28:

The point is that there is no answer....... Are you American, by any chance? Humour is different in our colony  ;D


One of the greatest cartoons ever (no tznius problem unless you count a rough cartoon of half a woman in trousers as a problem):

http://happinessandwarmguns.files.wordpress.com/2010/10/jon6.gif



This is day 2.

This is day 3.