Hi all,
I hope some of you remember me, after all I'm officially not here anymore. But I just wanted to share an amazing story that happened to me today.
I suffer terribly from the feeling that I dont matter and Hashem doesnt care about me and nothing I do makes a difference yadadada...
The last week or so I've been falling almost daily to inappropriate viewing (NOT porn...but bad nonetheless). This morning I couldn't find my glasses...hmmmmm I wonder what the message here is...any guesses?
Anyway, there I am trying to find them with my wife helping out in the search when out of desperation I say to Hashem (quietly of course because my wife doesnt know anything about this) "if we find my glasses I will bl'n not go near unfiltered internet until rosh chodesh elul" (as if rosh chodesh elul is a good time to start inappropriate viewing again...). Literally, AS THE WORDS LEFT MY MOUTH, my wife calls from the other room "I found them!"
Where were they? IN A PLACE I HAD ALREADY LOOKED before making the above declaration!
Any skeptics out there? Anyone else who thinks "I don't matter, God doesn't care about me"?
You are all welcome to draw your own conclusions from this story.
And with that I will conclude this episode of Chazon Yeshayahu
Good Shabbos

Incredible
Now its time to extend the Kabala till Rosh Chodesh Cheshvan

but i didnt lose my glasses again!!