Dear Forum,
Even at an Orthodox wedding you can definetely encounter shmiras einayim nisyonos. I am proud of myself because although my eyes wandered a lot tonight at least I thought about the nisayon ahead of time. In the past I would have simply walked into the wedding without feeling the weight of nisayon on my shoulders. But tonight, on the way to the wedding I thought tomyself, be careful tonight, there's bound to be a lot of attractive people who may not be properly clothed.
I am tired after the wedding so I would like to point out to myself my mesiras nefesh while typing this post despite my desire to go to sleep.
My face feels a little warm and heavy from past *astur**ation. I hope this feeling can go away soon and I can feel physically and spiritually whole again. My current streak is two weeks. I really hope it grows until the summer. During the summer in camp I can really remain clean and put together almost 3 months of being clean.
Good night.
TrueRatzon.